16th – 22nd July 2017
We have had a lovely 2 week holiday. We have been doing all the normal things you do on holiday. Like relaxing in the sun, exploring new places, swimming in the pool, eating in nice restaurants.
Because we have had a normal holiday also means that the normal has happened. I have put on a few pounds. Normally when I go on holiday I put on loads of weight, I get used to eating more and when I come home I don’t change my habits back again.
We went on holiday with a couple that we’ve become friends with this year. We met because she was doing a half marathon in Rwanda with me and her husband did the marathon.
Three of my sons came too. My youngest was wanting to do all these clapping games with us. You basically say a poem and clap out a routine with our hands.
While we were doing this with my son, I remembered a time when I would do the same at school. It was all the craze in those days, you would sing a silly song and then clap out a routine with our hands. I spent so much time practicing at break time and any other opportunity I could get. I remember loving it.
As I was telling Jake (my son) Michelle (my friend from Rwanda) commented that she did the same at school too. We thought we would try and remember it and teach Jake.
To our surprise we remembered it really well. We remembered the words the routine and everything. Not only that, we could do it quite fast. It was like we only did it yesterday.
Jake thought it was hilarious and couldn’t stop laughing at us. We then went on to teach him. He did eventually get it after practicing for the whole 2 weeks.
It has got me thinking. I have had 18 months of really good eating habits, 18 months of making good choices – why should I let 2 weeks of bad eating habits drag me down.
That clapping game came back to me after not doing it for over 30 years. I should be able to get back on the healthy eating after just a 2 week break!
2nd – 8th July 2017
This time is a busy time of year for me. At the end of the school year there is always so much to do with sports days and presentations and I am usually packing for holiday too.
This year is no different except that instead of packing for 6 people this year it’s like 8. It’s because my kids are going to so many different places over the summer. One of my sons has left on a school hockey and cricket tour in Sri Lanka for 2 weeks and he goes from there to India doing some missionary work for a month. Two of my other sons have come with us on holiday but as soon as we get home they go off to Serbia on mission hence so much packing.
With so much to do means that I lose focus on my goal of losing weight. My eating habits are not as bad as they were 18 months ago but I feel that on occasions I do let things slip a little though.
I still have that problem of looking in the mirror and seeing me the same way I always have. I sometimes struggle to think I have changed at all. These struggles are things that I face all the time and they can be very disheartening. It actually makes me feel a bit of a fraud – like I have been lying about my progress over the past 18 months. Then when I lose a little focus the feeling is worse.
When I feel like that I just think of where I have come from. 18 months ago I didn’t have the energy to keep going all day. I was over 5 stone heavier and I definitely couldn’t have ever ran a half marathon.
Sometimes though I get reminders in the little things like the fact that I can go shopping and buy clothes in a much smaller size than I use too, I try clothes on they are more likely to be too big than too tight, that I can get off the sofa in seconds and without pain rather than it taking me over 5 minutes.
The latest thing that reminds me is the fact after I have a shower and I only need one towel to wrap around me rather than 2!
It is one thing that I have noticed lately. I get slightly overwhelmed every time I wrap a towel around me and I can tie it. I half expect that I still need 2! It also means I can use the second towel to dry my hair.
These little things help to remind me that I am not a fraud. I have done better than what the mirror translates in my mind and even though I get set backs it helps me to move forward.
Wednesday 2nd November 2016
Last night Matt and I hoped on a plane and went to Portugal. We are going for a few days leaving the kids at home.
My Dad now lives in Portugal and the last time a saw him was May. I have changed a lot since then and my Dad seemed to notice the difference which was encouraging.
What was weird though was that before I left I had to get out all of my summer clothes. It was strange packing summer clothes when it is cold outside.
I packed the clothes I liked and put them in my case. However this morning when getting dressed some of the clothes were too big. I put a t shirt on that is now a great big dress.
A few other items are big too, even my swimming costume. It doesn’t seem that long ago since I was wearing them in the summer.
Before I left home I was noticing that things were fitting better. So yesterday morning I got back on the scales. I am still heavier than I was before I went to Devon but for some reason it didn’t seem to bother me.
I don’t know if it’s because I have got out of the habit of weighing myself and now I just don’t care anymore or because my clothes are feeling looser again.
I hope it’s the latter because, if it is because I don’t care anymore, that could lead me back in the wrong direction and I can’t have that.
Start weight 21st 5lbs
16st 07lbs. 0.9lbs⬆️. . 74.1lbs⬇️total
Start weight 136.5kg
101.9kg. 0.4⬆️. 34.5kg⬇️total
Sunday 31st July 2016
As I sit at a restaurant and order my last meal of the holiday I am looking through the menu and realise that I don’t seem to have as much trouble in knowing what to order like I did at the beginning of the holiday. It’s amazing what you can learn in a few weeks.
I have found this holiday that I have had salad twice a day. I think it’s because that’s all I felt I could eat. It’s worked out that I have had about 40 salads in almost 3 weeks.
It wasn’t however as bad as it sounds. Some days I was very happy to order salad, sometimes I really didn’t want to but I was glad I did once I got it. I have to say I haven’t had one bad salad throughout the holiday.
What I have enjoyed is all the different flavours. Sometimes I was eating food that I didn’t even know what it was. That is totally out of character for me. I usually never eat food that I don’t know. I don’t know why, it’s just how I have always been.
One day I had this salad that had sundried tomatoes in I have eaten tomatoes before I am trying to get to like them but I am struggling. So my first thought was ‘oh not tomatoes again.’
I plucked up the courage and tried one. They tasted so much different to tomatoes which surprised me. I thought they tasted really sweet and I think they are going to be added to my salads from now on.
This holiday has been hard with my food choices but it has been very rewarding. I am going home with a whole load more flavours that I can add to my meals.
No weigh in
Thursday 21st July 2016
Whilst on this holiday I feel that I have done ok with my eating. There is always room for improvement though. I feel that even though I am eating healthy I will not lose much weight because I have done absolutely no exercise.
I was planning to swim lengths of the pool. This pool you swim 2 strokes and you are at the other end. I would need to do a thousand lengths to make it beneficial.
Jenny told me before I left for my holiday that if I walk, cycle, swim or do any kind of activity I am not to class it as exercise but movement. Which means that I can’t eat extra food for doing some activities.
I have had one day that I walked 15000 steps, and I have been cycling. Our villa is on a hill and the nearest village is 3 miles away. We cycled down to the village and I don’t think I had to turn the peddles round once. I could really pick up speed all the way down. I loved it. That to me is what cycling is all about! However I have learnt that what goes up must come down and vice versa.
3 miles cycling solely up hill is a killer especially in a 35 degree heat. I felt like everything around me was melting
I had to stop for a drink a few times but I am very happy that I did it. I wasn’t sure I could do it as it was a lot steeper than I have done before. The heat got to me a little but I didn’t overheat like I normally do.
Start weight 21st 5lbs
16st 10.8lbs. ⬅️➡️ 64.2lbs⬇️total
Start weight 136.5kg
106.5kg. ⬅️➡️. 30kg⬇️total
Wednesday 13th July 2016
I find packing very stressful. I love holidays but really hate the packing.
I usually start to prepare a few weeks before by getting clothes washed, ironed and ready to go. This time I have been very disorganised. So I have been trying to get things done last minute.
Always when I go away I pack far too much.
This holiday we are driving so it a case of cram it all in the car.
I find when I am busy and tired I forget to think on what I am going to eat. Today I have had to make a conscious effort to think before I eat.
I feel I have done ok, I have even managed to prepare myself a chicken salad for tomorrow just in case, so I won’t have to eat in a service station and get tempted.
I am just looking forward to the holiday to start now.
Start weight 21st 5lbs
16st 11.2lbs. 0.4lbs⬇️. 63.8lbs⬇️total
Start weight 136.5kg
106.7kg. 0.2kg⬇️. 29.8kg⬇️total
Wednesday 6th April 2016
There was a trip today which most people went on. I however couldn’t go as there was a weight limit. It was slightly annoying. However I had a really good day.
The last time I was in a hot country and I went for a walk was Christmas before I started dieting. I went with my Dad and Tracie (his wife) and I overheated really quickly. I got very out of breath. To say I didn’t go well is an understatement.
Today I went for another walk with my Dad and Tracie. There was a fort in the distance high on a hill that we decided to walk to.
I thought I would overheat like I did last time, but that didn’t happen. I thought I might even struggle with the hills, but that didn’t happen either. I even beat them both up the hill which was quite shocking. My Dad was more worn out than me! I didn’t even get out of breath and the view was amazing.
Apparently the walk was tougher than the one at Christmas and it was also hotter. I however didn’t think that at all.
In 3 months I am quite amazed by how much fitter I have become. All those walks at home have paid off.
Friday 1st April 2016
We have been at this hotel for a week now. Today is the last day here and tomorrow we go to another destination. When we first arrived here we were on the top floor and there was no lift so it was the stairs for me. Fortunately there is only 3 floors to this hotel. At first I found the stairs a struggle but by the end of the week they were so much easier.
Today though I happened to find the lift – it’s a good job I didn’t see it at the start of the week!
Sunday 27th March 2016
I have found today really hard as I have been hungry all day. There was a buffet lunch and you could help yourself to anything. I must confess that I did put potatoes on my plate but I didn’t end up eating them.
Before I left for the holiday I spoke to Jenny, the nutritionist, and she said that there isn’t much I could have to drink except water. On the odd occasion I could have either a strawberry daiquiri or a pina colada. Today I just couldn’t help myself so I ordered a strawberry daiquiri
I have only drank water or black tea for the last 8 weeks, so this cocktail was so devine that it didn’t stay in glass for very long. It will mean that I will want one every day from now on!
I think I will need more will power