I find the run up to Christmas a very busy time, there is so much preparation that goes into just one day.
A lot of it is waiting – waiting for parcels to arrive, waiting for food to be delivered. Waiting for it all to be over.
When I am expecting a delivery there is nothing worse than waiting in all day for it to arrive and then half the time it either doesn’t come or it comes when you are out on the school run. So the waiting will have to happen all over again tomorrow.
The thing about waiting for things is it can get very boring. Boredom is something that makes me feel really hungry.
Usually I would go to my sewing room and do some work but because we are doing work on our house that room is out of action at the moment.
Even though I have got into some very good eating habits this year and I have got used to eating so much less than I used to, I still feel hungry when I am bored.
I don’t know why this is – it’s probably because I have time to think about my hunger. Which makes me want to eat. At times like that I have always gone to the fridge
This year I haven’t gone to the fridge once. It has helped though that I draw a picture everyday because that has kept my mind occupied on other things rather than food.
My drawings though can’t continue forever. It will be impossible to keep up this pace – I am surprised that I have managed to do it for so long and one day soon they will stop. I just hope that means I won’t go back into my old habits again.
Today is one of those days that I shouldn’t have even bothered to get out of bed.
Every Tuesday I have a few ladies over and we spend the day sewing. We sit and chat and we help each other with our projects. One lady I have taught to sew and make quilts and cushions. She has now made quite a few but on the odd occasion she needs some advice.
I am the one who can do it and I just get on with it. Not today though – everything went wrong. I ruined a t-shirt I was taking in and my sewing machine broke down a few times. It got to lunch time and by then I had given up. I am usually a person who never gives up.
Today though I have totally lost my mojo. It’s been parcelled up and sent to someone who can us it more wisely than me.
It even took me a few attempts at my drawing today.
I don’t know why I feel like that because I should be happy I have lost weight 2 days in a row. That hasn’t happened for so long that I couldn’t believe it when I got on the scales.
Eventhough I have lost my mojo my willpower has still remained. Which is amazing as normally when I feel like that I eat for comfort. Today though I stayed strong and stuck to my healthy eating plan.
So if you have got my mojo please send it back. Hopefully I will have it again tomorrow.
I find that there are lots of things that really keep me motivated to succeed. It’s really good to have a family who are supportive. It’s also good to have friends who are there for me too. Jenny, my nutritionist, has been really good at keeping me motivated.
I think without that support I am not sure I would have ever continued for so long.
One other thing that is helping with my motivation is this blog/diary. I find the fact that I have to sit, write and draw a picture everyday is really beneficial to me.
It gets me noticing things that I might never have noticed. It gets me thinking about all the positive things I am doing. It keeps me focused in the right direction. But most of all it keeps me motivated.
Somedays I struggle to know what to draw, somedays I draw the same things many times to get the picture right and somedays are easy.
It was Matt’s idea for me to write a diary everyday. As I am better at drawing than writing I thought I would draw it instead.
It has been good for me because if I have a low day or need some encouragement I just look back at my drawings and remember how I felt when I drew it.
I have only ever done it for my own benefit, however, knowing that I am encouraging others is an added bonus.