Year 2 week 30

23rd- 29th July 2017

I have always loved the summer, it’s usually warmer, it’s a time to go on holiday, it’s time to relax and wind down. 

Since I have been going down this weight loss journey, and I am now half way through my second summer, I find that the summer is also the hardest. 

Summertime is when all routine is gone. I am a person who likes routine. Routine means you know what is coming and you can prepare for it.

In the summer it’s always been see where the day takes me, no particular plans. Trying to lose weight with no routine is the hardest. It’s like I can’t concentrate on my goals, I am totally lacking in focus. 

This week I have spent a few days at a conference called Focus. I was hoping, because of the name, it might help me with my focus. 

One thing that was said was “don’t think that God is invisible – his fingerprints are all over your life” 

One thing I have noticed over the past 18 months is how much help God has actually given me. How even through the hard times he has been right there by my side. 

Here I am going through another hard time. Finding it hard to stay focused on my ultimate goal. One thing, though, that I am forgetting is that God is there beside me leaving his fingerprints. I just forgot to look for them. 


Day 347

Monday 12th December 2016

I don’t know what has happened but so much has changed in one day. 

Today has been one of those days where I have jobs to do, but I just don’t want to do them. If I didn’t do them today they would never get done. So it was a case that I just had to do them. 

I constantly tell my kids that life is sometimes doing things you don’t want to do. It makes the things you do want to do more rewarding. 

The jobs were all tedious jobs that don’t take too long to do but you often put them off for as long as you can until you have to do them. 

I felt like I have been running around like a headless chicken all day. The problem with a day like today is that normal routine goes straight out of the window. 

The thing about a day like today is that I end up feeling shattered and rundown. I have to say that today is no different except normally I would have eaten between my meals. Today I didn’t 

I did however not have time to even think about lunch until 3pm which has made me not hungry for my dinner now.  

I am however proud that I didn’t eat between my meals but it isn’t really a good thing for me to miss my meal slot. It’s the first step to me losing my normal routine. 

I think routines are important especially when it comes to my meals. I just hope I can get back to normal tomorrow. 

Day 250

Tuesday 6th September 2016

Today is the last day of the summer holidays. Tomorrow the kids go back to school. I usually find it hard getting the kids back to school because we have been out of the routine of getting up early, sorting out bags, doing pack lunches for the last 8 weeks. The getting up early bit is the worst though. 

I have found since I climbed Snowdon that I have been really lazy. I can’t seem to be bothered to do anything. Usually when the kids go back to school I am really organised – not this year though. I can’t be bothered. They usually go back with fresh hair cuts as I cut their hair – I haven’t bothered to do that either. 

When it comes to my eating nothing really has changed there. I am still eating what I should. But I can’t be bothered to make it. I don’t know why I have this attitude – it is like I have gone back into some of my old habits again. 

Hopefully getting back into a proper routine will help. Today though I have been thinking its time I changed my attitude. 

I sometimes listen to UCB on the radio. Today there was an interview with a man who had gone through quite a lot of hardship in his life. They asked him if he had any advice for the listeners and he said “never give up”. 

I feel that this year I have come a long way but now I feel I need to step up some more. 

Taking that next step up can be really hard. But I have decided that I will never give up, never give up dreaming, never give up trying, never give up believing – I can do it and I am never going to give up believing in myself. 

I have got to this stage on diets before and I gave up. I think it was because I thought I looked OK and I didn’t need to try anymore or even because I did try and I wasn’t losing any weight. To stop at this stage now I think would be the worst thing. I need to keep going or I will end up back at square one and I haven’t put in all this hard work to throw it away now. 

So quiting really isn’t an option. I just hope that I can battle on through.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 7.4lbs.    0.4lbs⬇️.     67.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

105kg.        0.1kg⬇️.         31.5kg⬇️total

Day 239

Friday 26th August 2016

Today is turning out to be a really busy day. Everyone is working hard around the house getting lots of jobs done. 

We are also packing for a weekend away with the kids and dogs. It’s hard to prepare my food when we are all so pre-occupied 

Preparing healthy meals every day has become part of my daily routine and when I am too busy it can really mess with my routine.

I could quite easily slip at times like that. The only good thing about it is that I am too busy to think about food. 

I am a mother who teaches my kids to cook, clean and tidy up after themselves. It doesn’t always work especially, the tiding up after themselves, but they do like the cooking part.

Today, as we were busy, my sons thought about me and made me my health lunch and dinner. It was such a help and it meant I didn’t end up eating the wrong food which was a bonus.

Kids can come in very handy sometimes.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 8lbs.    ⬅️➡️.  . 67lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

105.2kg.      ⬅️➡️.     31.3kg⬇️total

Day 217

Thursday 4th August 2016

It is really nice to be home. When on holiday there is no such thing as routine. We are a family that, while on holiday, we don’t make particular plans. We just wake up in the morning and see what we all want to do. 

When at home we like routine. It’s nice to get some routine back. I can’t believe I am saying this but I missed having my green juice every morning. It’s good to have them back. 

I have also missed my daily walks. Today I got my boots out again.

I haven’t been on a walk for about a month. I thought I would find it hard, I thought I would struggle up the hills but I didn’t. In fact I found it really easy.

I think maybe it’s time to start walking further or do something a little more challenging. 

I’m very happy with the weight I have lost over my holiday. The struggle was worth it in the end. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 8.2lbs.   3.9lbs⬇️.    66.8lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

105.3kg.          1.8kg⬇️.       31.2kg⬇️total

Day 189

Thursday 7th July 2016

I really like routine – if I plan to do things regularly I would book it in the same time every week. 

I don’t work but I spend my time doing my hobbies and planning for my healthier lifestyle. I find time to do this while the kids are at school. 

Yesterday my kids broke up from school for the summer holidays. So today I had to get rid of my routine and do things with them.
In the summer holidays I find that all routine goes out of the window, it’s like my clock has stopped for a season.  

I feel that this year I will need to try harder to keep my clock of routine wound up tight. 

In the summer I don’t have time to think about to much other than the kids. With the kids in the house they need to be occupied, they still need to be fed and food still needs to be bought. 

I am worried though that I will quickly get back into my old habits and not have the time to prepare my own food but end up eating the kids food instead. 

I value my routine  it’s what keeps me going. Without it I feel like that stopped clock. It is going to take a lot to keep it going.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 11.8lbs.    0.8lbs⬇️.    63.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 135.6 kg

107.0kg.         0.3kg⬇️.      29.8kg⬇️total