Day 363

Wednesday 28th December 2016

When I started this journey I was always going to write a diary about my experiences everyday. What I didn’t plan to do was share it. 

I found my own way of expressing how I felt with my drawings everyday but I didn’t really expect anyone to ever read it. I know that sounds stupid because I put my diary on this blog everyday in a public place for people to see. 

The response I have got has been amazing. On certain days I have had over a thousand views reading one particular post. Over this year I have had over 34 thousand views and about 14 thousand visitors so far. 

I never really expected that kind of response. At times I feel that I have really put myself out there, I have shared my ups and downs. I feel that you, who have read it, have journeyed it with me and I have had all great comments – not one negative one. 

All your comments have been a great encouragement to me. I am really grateful for your support throughout this year. 

I think you must have got really fed up with me though popping up on your emails, timelines, and text notifications everyday.

On occasions it has been a real effort. Some days I have no idea what to talk about, some days I don’t know what to draw, some days I get a picture pop in my mind of something I need to draw but I have no idea why, I do it anyway and then it seems to come together when I write it. 

Some days I draw many pictures because they often look rubbish.  I have been even known to post the rubbish picture because I can’t be bothered to redo it! Some days I knew I would be so busy that I wouldn’t have time to draw about it, so it meant I had to prepare and do it the day before. Some days I felt I waffled and talked rubbish 

I have no idea how I have managed to keep it going everyday for so long. I have no idea where the inspiration for each post has come from. The only thing I can think of is that it’s God giving me the inspiration to say what I’ve said. 

Thank you so much for being with me on this journey. You have all kept me going.


Day 306

Tuesday 1st November 2016

This is the first year ever I have done a diary. For me to write anything is such a big deal. I have found it hard in the past to even respond to people’s texts. I find it so much easier to draw than write. I feel I can express myself better when I draw.

Everyday when I draw my pictures I do them in a book. At the beginning of the year I worked out that I would need 7 books to complete the year. 

Today I started my 7th book, I think that means I have got to the final chapter. 

Reaching my last book has made me feel really good because when I bought them it seemed so long away to get through them. 

I could never have imagined where it would take me. Today as I take my 7th book off the shelf I realised that these books contain my life this year

I also realised that they contain my thoughts, my emotions, past hurts, my feelings. For years I have been those book ends leaning against them keeping them hidden from view. Keeping all the feeling closed inside. 

This year I have found that I have not only opened the books I have put them on public display for everyone to see. 

If I think back now it was a very brave thing for me to do. This year for the first time I have lived my life like an open book, with nothing hidden. I have to say though it has been a very rewarding journey to go down And I have never written so much in my life. 

No weigh in

Day 255

Sunday 11th September 2016

Today as its Sunday I went to church. As I have said before I have gone to church since I was a child. 

When I was younger I use to sit in the meeting, after my Dad would ask me what was said. I could never remember. 

About 5 years ago I started to draw what I heard and ever since that day I have been able to retain the information. I can now look back at my pictures and I can tell you who spoke and what they spoke about. 

I now do a Facebook page called ‘The WORD’ in pictures and a few people from church follow me. The pictures though are very rough because they are drawn in a relative short space of time. I get a lot out of them. 

Today was no different I still drew my picture. We on occasions do a series where the theme is the same for many weeks. The theme at the minute is called ‘Stretching without snapping’

We are only 2 weeks in but I have to say it is speaking to me right where I am at. I feel this year that I have been stretched and stretched and I am surprised that I haven’t snapped yet. 

It is amazing what a little willpower and determination can do. It has definitely stopped me from snapping. 

The whole series is about Isaiah 54, in verse 1 it says how the Barron woman should sing. Sing through the trials and sing through the hard times. 

the picture I drew for the WORD in pictures

I am not a very good singer however I do like to sing at church. I am very loud and off key. I unfortunately,to all those near me have one of those voices that carries. My Son turned to me once and said “Mum I think you have sang enough”. I don’t care I like to sing. 

To sing though in the hard times is not as easy and I have had some really hard times this year. I have a whole load of issues that I am gradually working through. As far as I can see I am still singing on through. I hope it continues. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 7.4lbs. ⬅️➡️. 67.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

105kg. ⬅️➡️. 31.5kg⬇️total

Day 232

Friday 19th August 2016

I find that there are lots of things that really keep me motivated to succeed. It’s really good to have a family who are supportive. It’s also good to have friends who are there for me too. Jenny, my nutritionist, has been really good at keeping me motivated.

I think without that support I am not sure I would have ever continued for so long. 

One other thing that is helping with my motivation is this blog/diary. I find the fact that I have to sit, write and draw a picture everyday is really beneficial to me. 

It gets me noticing things that I might never have noticed. It gets me thinking about all the positive things I am doing. It keeps me focused in the right direction. But most of all it keeps me motivated.

Somedays I struggle to know what to draw, somedays I draw the same things many times to get the picture right and somedays are easy. 

It was Matt’s idea for me to write a diary everyday. As I am better at drawing than writing I thought I would draw it instead. 

It has been good for me because if I have a low day or need some encouragement I just look back at my drawings and remember how I felt when I drew it. 

I have only ever done it for my own benefit, however, knowing that I am encouraging others is an added bonus. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 8.4lbs. ⬅️➡️. 66.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

105.4kg. ⬅️➡️.     31.9kg⬇️total