Day 213

Sunday 31st July 2016

As I sit at a restaurant and order my last meal of the holiday I am looking through the menu and realise that I don’t seem to have as much trouble in knowing what to order like I did at the beginning of the holiday. It’s amazing what you can learn in a few weeks. 

I have found this holiday that I have had salad twice a day. I think it’s because that’s all I felt I could eat. It’s worked out that I have had about 40 salads in almost 3 weeks. 

It wasn’t however as bad as it sounds. Some days I was very happy to order salad, sometimes I really didn’t want to but I was glad I did once I got it. I have to say I haven’t had one bad salad throughout the holiday.

What I have enjoyed is all the different flavours. Sometimes I was eating food that I didn’t even know what it was. That is totally out of character for me. I usually never eat food that I don’t know. I don’t know why, it’s just how I have always been. 

One day I had this salad that had sundried tomatoes in I have eaten tomatoes before I am trying to get to like them but I am struggling. So my first thought was ‘oh not tomatoes again.’ 

I plucked up the courage and tried one. They tasted so much different to tomatoes which surprised me. I thought they tasted really sweet and I think they are going to be added to my salads from now on.

This holiday has been hard with my food choices but it has been very rewarding. I am going home with a whole load more flavours that I can add to my meals.

No weigh in


Day 212

Saturday 30th July 2016

Today we were leaving our villa after having a holiday with a few personal minor goals accomplished. 

We decided however to extend our holiday for a few days. We have some friends staying in the French Alps and we thought we would book a hotel near them and spend some time with them. 

While on the journey it gave me time to reflect on a few of my minor accomplishments. Every time we go away we always take a camping chair for the beach. This year we forgot it. Which meant that I had to put my beach towel on the ground instead.

The heaviest I have ever been was 23 stone. This time,though, before I started losing weight I was not far off 22 stone. 

The reason I always take a chair to the beach is because trying to get 23/22 stone off the ground is not an easy task. I would end up looking clumsy and unladylike, not really getting very far.

I would end up needing help getting up off the ground. My kids would come to my rescue. My sons are very strong – it’s probably because on occasions they would have to help me off the ground. I would very often need more than one child to help me up. I think we would end up drawing a lot of attention. Then I ended up being embarrassed. 

This year because my towel was on the floor I still asked the kids for help getting up but I attracted a lot less attention and there was no embarrassment. 

Half way through the holiday though I thought maybe I could get up myself. So I tried and to my surprise I succeeded. 

This may sound trivial because most people can get up off the ground easily by themselves. But when you haven’t done it in years and all of a sudden you can. That’s big for me. Even if I still looked very unladylike!

No weigh in

Day 211

Friday 29th July 2016

Today is our last day at our villa in France, but before we get packing I wanted to do one final bike ride. 

Even though I have been on a few bike rides this holiday I haven’t done one with the whole family, which was one of my goals.

However we have come away with only 3 of my 4 kids. My eldest did not come this year. Which means I couldn’t totally fulfill my goal. 

So today I went cycling with Matt and my 3 sons

A lot of fun was had by all. I really enjoyed seeing the kids enjoying themselves. They would spend most of their time overtaking each other and then giggle as they got the lead. 

What made it extra special was that I would never have had that time with the kids if I had kept on the road I was going down before. 

I am getting so many benefits everyday from my new life. I just wish I did it sooner so I could have done more activities with the kids while they were growing up.

No weigh in

Day 210

Thursday 28th July 2016

I have always liked travelling. I feel very privileged to have been to many different countries, most of them hot. As a child our family holidays were always abroad, and my parents loved to go to different destinations every time. 

I have always struggled with the heat when I go to a hot country. I have always been prone to overheating. It’s probably because I am over weight. I would swell up like a balloon. 

One thing I have noticed about this holiday is that I haven’t done that. One of the signs that this hasn’t happened is that I can still wear my rings. My hands have always been the first thing to swell. And then my ankles. When it happens I find it hard to clench my fists, bend my knees and elbows and move my ankles. 

None of this is happening this year. I don’t know why – I have no theory other than it must be because of all the weight I have lost. I am definitely not complaining. 

It is funny that when these things are not happening to me anymore I forget that I ever had a problem until something sparks my memory and now it’s just another achievement that I can add to the long list I already have.

No weigh in

Day 209

Wednesday 27th July 2016

I have found lately that I have done a little bit of looking back over the past year. This time last summer I was on holiday just like I am now. I was eating whatever I wanted like pizzas, burgers, chips, pastries, ice creams.  I even ate between my meals. However I was piling on the weight fast. I had no energy to do anything and my health was not very good. 

This holiday everything is totally the opposite. I am eating healthier, I have so much more energy ( I find myself saying that I would rather walk than catch a bus) and my health has improved. 

One thing I have noticed this holiday is that my skin has improved. I was diagnosed with being photosensitive which mean my skin reacts in the sun. I have had it for years and my skin gets very itchy to a point that I can’t stand it any longer. I have been told by the doctors that there is nothing that can be done, I just need to stay out of the sun. This condition has now gone, I haven’t been itchy once. 

It’s amazing the change that you can do in less than a year. 

It’s like the change a tiny plant makes in a year. It grows and I feel I have grown in self confidence this year. It changes shape and size I have definitely done that. And it eventually blossoms bringing its true self out into the light.  I am getting there on that one as I still have a long way to go. So I would say that I am the bud gradually coming out 

change in my face in one year

a family wedding last year and today

These pictures were taken a year apart. 

I know it looks like I still have a lot of weight to lose but I feel, by me looking back, it helps me to move forward. Especially as I have found it particularly hard this holiday.

No weigh in

Day 208

Tuesday 26th July 2016

A few months back I went to a conference. One of the reasons I was there was because there was an artist doing a workshop. She does a lot of prophetic art. As I am really into art I went to her workshop. She gave us blank cards that we were to write something to someone in the room. I didn’t know anyone else but I wrote my card and handed it to a lady. I got a few back in return. All were very relevant to my situation. 

One card said though “you are digging deep, but dig deeper still.” I have no idea who gave me that card and I don’t think they knew me and what I was going through this year.

That phrase “Dig Deep” has cropped up so many times since people have been using it to encourage me, to keep going. 

Today Matt has done an amazing challenge. We are staying in France near Mt Ventoux and the challenge is to cycle up the 3 different routes to the top within 24 hours. It’s 5000 meters of climbing in total over 140 kilometres. He did it in 8 hours. For Matt to even succeed in this challenge he had to really dig deep – especially as he was by himself for much of it. 

There were times that he wanted to quit. There were times he had absolutely no strength to continue. But he really did dig deep and he succeeded. He battled the steep inclines, the isolation, the heat, even the rain at times! Now he looks back and he is really proud of his achievement. He knows alot of cyclists but hasn’t come across any that have completed that challenge. 

I found Matt’s achievement very inspiring. The sheer grit and determination I saw made me so proud of him. 

I am finding that for me to succeed and get anywhere near my goals I think I need to start digging even deeper just like that note said. 

It may be hard but the rewards will be worth it when I succeed. 

No weigh in 

Day 207

Monday 25th July 2016

I always knew before I left for this holiday  that I would find it really difficult. I knew that my food choices were going to be hard. I knew the kids would be eating pizza, burgers, chips, ice cream and bread, pastries and croissants from the bakery. 

Since being on the holiday all that is true but I think it is worse than I expected. Normally I wouldn’t find it a problem because with my healthy eating I would be losing weight. This holiday I am still eating really healthily but I am putting on weight. I don’t understand why because I have done nothing to make this happen. When I see the scales go up I just try even harder. But then the scales go up again. 

I have to admit that it has really got to me. It makes me want to take a hammer to the scales. 

I texted Jenny because I was upset this was her response 

“You are doing nothing wrong do not panic, it’s just all those little things add up and you add the heat to the situation, bit of bloating it’s just your liver storing things, it will only be 3/4 lbs and they will easily drop off as soon as you get home. Keep enjoying yourself, the freedom, flavours and the holiday, a few lbs does not matter when you are feeling this good, trust yourself xx”

It made me feel better. But I have come to some conclusions 

1) I am not going to use the scales for the rest of the holiday because they are depressing me. 

2) I am going to remember how far I have come in a short period of time. 

And 3) I am going to remember what it was like after my last holiday when I didn’t really see my true weight until 3-5 days after my holiday when my body settled down again. 

So I have decided not to worry, enjoy my holiday but still keep eating the way I am because I am not doing nothing wrong. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 12.1lbs.    0.3lbs⬆️.   62.9lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

107.1kg.     0.1kg⬆️.      29.4kg⬇️total

Day 206

Sunday 24th July 2016

Matt asked me if I wanted to go for another bike ride. It was the last thing I wanted to do. But as I have said that I would say yes to everything health related this year I said I would go. 

We went to the village again and this time I caught up with the cyclists in front. It’s amazing the feeling when you are going faster than the other cyclists. It really gave me a boost to get back up the 3 mile hill afterwards. 

I went over half way up without stopping. I seemed to get myself into a rhythm and there was no stopping me. I was buzzing and I could have carried on but Matt and Jonny, my son, were behind. So I stopped and waited for them. 

When I got back on I didn’t do quite so well but I did it! I was very happy with my achievement. 

Matt said later that my legs are getting really thin and I am starting to look like a flamingo. 

He said this because flamingos have really thin long legs and a big body and joked that if I keep up cycling it will get worse! 

He didn’t stop me from feeling really happy with my achievement. 

We then went to the Camargue region in France for the day where there were flamingos which I thought was a funny coincidence. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 11.8lbs.     ⬅️➡️.    63.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

107kg.          ⬅️➡️.           29.5kg⬇️total

Day 205

Saturday 23rd July 2016

When you lose weight I find that clothes seem to drop lower and hang longer. Tops I find end up being dresses. I like the fact they are longer but the neck line also gets lower. Which can cause a stir at times. 

I did learn really quick though when, a few weeks back, I flashed my bra at someone accidentally.  Fortunately his wife was there and they found it funny rather than her telling me off. I did leave slightly embarrassed though.

On holiday I tend to wear a lot of strappy tops. I bought a load for my last holiday in March so I didn’t want to buy new ones. 

They hang really long but they also drop too low at the front.  But I have come up with a solution.

I find when I tie a knot in each strap it works really well it lifts it enough at the front and It has eliminated any more embarrassing moments

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 11.8lbs.    0.4lbs⬆️     63.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

107kg.     0.2kg⬆️.     29.5kg⬇️total

Day 204

Friday 22nd July 2016

We are trying to venture out somewhere everyday. We have been to a few towns, been to the beach, eaten out a lot. We have also been to a few markets. 

One market we went to was a fruit and veg market. 

Usually when I go to a fruit and veg market I am really uninterested, I get bored quick and I can’t wait to leave. This time I found it fascinating and was really intrigued at some of the unusual fruit and veg. 

We even came back with a few items like nectarines, white cherries, celeriac ( I have never heard of it but apparently it’s really nice) and olives. 

One thing Jenny has asked me to try was olives. I have never really liked them before. Today I tried them again I don’t think I would eat them on there own but they are good in a salad.

In previous years I have never really been willing to try new things. This year there isn’t a week goes by without me trying something new. This holiday it’s turning out to be every day. 

I am delving into a whole new world and I’m enjoying the outcome.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 11.4lbs.     0.6lbs⬆️   63.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

106.8kg.    0.3kg⬆️.       29.7kg⬇️total