16th – 22nd April 2017
This week has been a real struggle. I don’t know why, but I am struggling to get motivated to do anything.
I always seem to find things harder when the kids are off school, I think it is because my routine changes. With the kids off school this Easter, I have forgotten appointments, struggled to eat healthy and I have found it hard to go out training for my half marathon.
I have taken my training very seriously. I know if I don’t train there is no way I can do it. Even though I have struggled this week, I have still managed to go out running.
One thing I have noticed lately is that I seem to have slowed up a lot, things that I found easy all of a sudden now seem hard, I also feel like when I am running I have a big heavy weight on my back slowing me down.
I feel like I have led weights in my shoes too. I am managing to do the distances I want to achieve, but it seems to be taking so much more out of me than normal.
I am hoping that when the kids go back to school again next week I will start to find things a bit easier again. Until then I will have to continue struggling.
26th March – 1st April 2017
This week has been quite a tough week. Training for a half marathon is hard – a lot harder than I thought it would be.
Last week I ran my first 10k. I was really happy with my achievement to run 10k with only 2 weeks training since my operation. It made me feel that a half marathon is achievable.
This week though things have gone totally in the other direction. I feel like I am making 1 step forward and 2 steps back.
I have managed to do some training. One day I went with Matt and Jake (my youngest son). Going with Matt is usually really good and helpful but on this occasion it was slightly demoralising. Jake is a very fast runner, he is always winning his cross country races at school and Matt started physically running circles around me.
Then the running circles turned into skipping circles and laughing as he did it. He was trying to get me to enjoy the experience and have fun.
I did laugh along with him but for me seeing him and Jake with so much energy while I was totally exhausted I don’t think really helped.
My pace is just not challenging enough for him. It made me feel like I was putting in so much effort but physically going nowhere.
However when I got back home and collapsed on the sofa I realised that I did it a minute quicker than normal. So I think Matt running circles around me worked.
It hasn’t stopped me feeling extra tired this week. One thing that keeps me going is knowing that I am doing it for a worthy cause.
Every time I run I think of the fact that I will potentially be helping some children that need it. It is exciting to think I will be actually meeting the children I will be helping. I will be seeing the good work Compassion does and see where that money I have raised goes to. It makes every step, however hard, worth it.
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Friday 28th October 2016
This morning I woke up at what felt like the crack of dawn when in reality it was later than I normally get up on a week day.
I was, however, the first up in the house for a change. I was up early because I had a training session first thing.
There was something nice about being up before everyone else, the house is peaceful and it gave me a bit of time to reflect on the day.
I have been quite fed up and frustrated lately but having time with myself this morning has made me think it’s a new day – I could sit and wallow in self pity or I could start afresh.
I have decided to start afresh. Forget all that has past and just focus on where I am heading.
I don’t know how long it will take me to get there but it’s good to have a goal and have something to aim for even if it seems impossible sometimes to achieve it.
Doing my training this morning has also helped me to start afresh because it seemed to cheer me up. It must have been just what I needed today.
No weigh in
Friday 21st October 2016
It must have been at least a month since I did one of my daily walks. The reason I haven’t done them recently is because I felt I needed to do something different.
I have been going to exercise classes and I have also upped the amount of training I do with my personal trainer.
For the last few weeks I have either had an exercise class to go to or a training session. There has been one every day of the week, sometimes 2 a day, only having a break at weekends.
Over the last few days I feel that I have worn myself out. I have put those trainers on one too many times and now I am exhausted.
I feel I need to do it to keep me motivated. I also still enjoy it which is good considering I am so tired.
Hopefully though I will quickly get used to the extra exercise because I am worried that the enjoyment will get replaced with exhaustion and I won’t want to do it anymore.
I feel I really need to keep to a routine of certain exercises a day just to spur me on. I have noticed while doing the exercises that I am achieving so much. Last year I would never have done any running, go on a bike, do half the exercises I am doing now. I just wouldn’t have had the energy
I am actually quite proud of my achievements this year. I now feel I can do these exercises which I wouldn’t have dared to try last year.
I just hope my energy comes back soon though.
Start weight 21st 5lbs
15st 13.8lbs. ⬅️➡️. 75.2lbs⬇️total
Start weight 136.5kg
101.6kg. ⬅️➡️. 34.9kg⬇️total
Tuesday 27th September 2016
Today was a very different Tuesday for me. I usually have a few ladies round and we sit and spend the day sewing. They didn’t come today though. I have however had another training session instead.
Jenny told me that she thinks I need to up my exercise and have more than one session a week with my personal trainer. So today we started.
For a good few years now I have been boxing. I love boxing – there is something really satisfying about punching someone. I don’t go round punching people as a rule but it is really enjoyable when you are told to. Ok, so he is holding pads and I punch them, but it’s still good.
For about 6 months now I haven’t done any boxing at all as I have been doing some HIIT training instead. Today, as we have added in another one, it gave us the opportunity to get out the boxing gloves, brush off all the cobwebs and use them again.
I didn’t realise how much I missed it. I really enjoyed it too.
I have been told that I have a really good punch and I put a lot of power behind it. I think it was because I put all my weight behind each punch. Let’s face it, it was a lot of weight.
I thought I might have lost some of my power and at first I really wasn’t as good as I used to be but it soon came back. Even with the lack of food at the moment.
Start weight 21st 5lbs
15st 13.3lbs. 0.2lbs⬇️. 75.7lbs⬇️total
Start weight 136.5kg
101.3kg. 0.1kg⬇️ 35.2kg⬇️total
Friday 22nd April 2016
I had my training today. It has been a month since my last one.
I have started up a new training program called HIIT high intensity interval training. I didn’t know what it was. I didn’t think I would like it though.
It was short bursts of lots of different exercises. Some were hard and some were not so bad.
I did this exercise called the compass.
I think that was one of the hardest. I had to jump in a certain direction and then back to the centre again and the repeat many times.
I don’t jump ! I haven’t done it in years as it is too much pressure on my knees. I seemed to handle it fine though.
I think I might ache tomorrow.
17st. 12.9lbs. 0.4lbs⬇️. 48.1lbs⬇️total
113.8kg. 0.2kg⬇️. 22.7kg⬇️total
Friday 11th March 2016
Had another training session today, it was the first time I got my boxing gloves out since the detox.
I feel like I have lost a lot of my power. I don’t seem to have the energy that I had when I was consuming more calories.
I felt a little disheartened today as my weight really is not budging at all. I went out for a healthy meal for dinner. A change of scenery and new flavours really did help.
19st 0.8lbs. ⬅️➡️. 32.2lbs⬇️total