Year 2 week 47

19th – 25th November 2017

I am still on my detox, I feel I have been doing quite well. I have started to get really bored with it now though. Partly because the weight has stopped coming off and partly because I am sick of salad.

My exercise has not been quite as good. I think at first I didn’t do too much because I was feeling weak. This week I have managed to up my exercise a little.

I have done something I never thought I would ever see myself do – I have joined a running club. My friend has been going to this club for a while and she has been asking me to go. I have always managed to find some excuse of why not to go so it ended up that she stopped asking me.

I just didn’t want to go – it was also at night which is the time when I relax. I also felt that I would be an embarrassment – not fit enough, and I felt I would always be at the back holding people up. I don’t know what came over me though because I asked my friend if I could go with her this week. I really didn’t want to go I just knew I needed to go.

After I asked her the nerves came over me but I still went. We did an hour of circuit training first and to my surprise I could keep up and I could do most of the things that we were supposed to do.

After that came the running and I have to say all my fears disappeared as I could keep up. They did these little challenges to make it more interesting that I liked. I really enjoyed myself

I didn’t feel embarrassed at all. Well that was until I was in the middle of one of the challenges and we were to run down a cul-de-sac as fast as we could and then run back up again.

On my way down though I tripped over a kerb. I was then heading straight for someone’s front garden fence and, I don’t know how I did it, but I hurdled it and then I was then face to face with a tree that unbelievably I managed to dodge only to be faced with another fence that I also hurdled. I think that all became too much for me because I then went splat in someone else driveway!

Because I was doing quite well and I wasn’t at the back meant I also had an audience. All these people came running to see how I was. Surprisingly though I was fine other than scrapes on my hands and knees.

Everyone was so nice. People who saw me said it was a very impressive fall and was amazed I stayed on my feet for so long. Others came up to me saying how on their first week they did the same thing. My fall, in someways, helped me get to know people and it has made me want to go next week.

One thing I have always told my kids is that sometimes in life there are things that we don’t want to do but when we do it, it can end up being quite rewarding and you never know you might even enjoy it. I think this week I have said that to myself .

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Day 344

Friday 9th December 2016

I find the run up to Christmas a very busy time, there is so much preparation that goes into just one day. 

A lot of it is waiting – waiting for parcels to arrive, waiting for food to be delivered. Waiting for it all to be over. 


When I am expecting a delivery there is nothing worse than waiting in all day for it to arrive and then half the time it either doesn’t come or it comes when you are out on the school run. So the waiting will have to happen all over again tomorrow. 

The thing about waiting for things is it can get very boring. Boredom is something that makes me feel really hungry. 

Usually I would go to my sewing room and do some work but because we are doing work on our house that room is out of action at the moment.

Even though I have got into some very good eating habits this year and I have got used to eating so much less than I used to, I still feel hungry when I am bored. 

I don’t know why this is – it’s probably because I have time to think about my hunger. Which makes me want to eat. At times like that I have always gone to the fridge 

This year I haven’t gone to the fridge once. It has helped though that I draw a picture everyday because that has kept my mind occupied on other things rather than food. 

My drawings though can’t continue forever. It will be impossible to keep up this pace – I am surprised that I have managed to do it for so long and one day soon they will stop. I just hope that means I won’t go back into my old habits again. 

Day 225

Friday 12th August 2016

We have been back from our holiday over a week now. Since being home it has been easy getting back into a normal routine. 

I have managed to go on a walk everyday this week but I haven’t been out on my bike though. 

I really enjoyed my rides on holiday but since being back I can’t seem to get motivated. Matt asked me if I wanted a bike ride – I did want to go but I just couldn’t be bothered. I had that attitude that I couldn’t be bothered to do anything. I get that sometimes when I am bored. 

Matt however got his assertive head on and said “get changed we are going on a ride”.  I am glad he did as I think I would have sat around and done nothing all day otherwise.

I thought I might just go around the block a few times. But while we were out Matt kept asking if I wanted to go further. As we had gone to the trouble of getting changed and out there I agreed to go further and I’m so glad we did. 

It’s lovely cycling in the countryside because you get to appreciate the scenery more than when you drive around the lanes.  England is really lovely when the sun is shining. The views can be really amazing. However this was my view!


I felt by the time I got back that I’d had a  descent ride. I found it quite a lot easier than I normally do and I didn’t seem to get as tired either. I think it must be because it wasn’t as hot as on holiday and I felt like I had more energy.

I ended up really enjoying my day. I could have sat around and done nothing all day like I wanted to. But I feel I have made good use of my day and I have really accomplished something. 

I think the moral of the story is that if you don’t feel like doing something but you end up doing it the rewards are so much greater!

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 7.2lbs. ⬅️➡️ 67.8lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

104.9kg. ⬅️➡️. 31.4kg⬇️total

Day 37

Saturday 6th February 2016

Day 10 of detox

Stuck to diet however, I was at home on my own all day as Matt took the boys out for the day.

I was so bored which I think contributed to me hitting the wall at about 5pm. I just got really fed up with the diet.

After dinner all back to normal. Went swimming and took another photo.

20th Jan – 6th Feb

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

20st 0.9lbs.     0.2lbs⬇️.     18.1lbs⬇️.     😔

Day 23

Saturday 23rd January 2016

The weight keeps coming off which I am really happy about. However today was a real struggle.


Matt and all the kids went out to watch the rugby today and left me in the house on my own. Usually I would think it was great a bit of peace and quiet, but today I needed them to keep my mind occupied because I felt really hungry. Instead I was very bored which I am sure added to the hunger.

By the end of the day even after dinner there was nothing that could get rid of my hunger at all except eat loads and I wasn’t going to do that. I got to the stage where I just couldn’t cope any more.

I went to bed hungry

No exercise today.

20st 9lbs.    0.9 lbs ⬇️.    10lbs⬇️total 😋🎂🍟🍔🍕🍨🍰🍩🍪