I find the run up to Christmas a very busy time, there is so much preparation that goes into just one day.
A lot of it is waiting – waiting for parcels to arrive, waiting for food to be delivered. Waiting for it all to be over.
When I am expecting a delivery there is nothing worse than waiting in all day for it to arrive and then half the time it either doesn’t come or it comes when you are out on the school run. So the waiting will have to happen all over again tomorrow.
The thing about waiting for things is it can get very boring. Boredom is something that makes me feel really hungry.
Usually I would go to my sewing room and do some work but because we are doing work on our house that room is out of action at the moment.
Even though I have got into some very good eating habits this year and I have got used to eating so much less than I used to, I still feel hungry when I am bored.
I don’t know why this is – it’s probably because I have time to think about my hunger. Which makes me want to eat. At times like that I have always gone to the fridge
This year I haven’t gone to the fridge once. It has helped though that I draw a picture everyday because that has kept my mind occupied on other things rather than food.
My drawings though can’t continue forever. It will be impossible to keep up this pace – I am surprised that I have managed to do it for so long and one day soon they will stop. I just hope that means I won’t go back into my old habits again.
We have been back from our holiday over a week now. Since being home it has been easy getting back into a normal routine.
I have managed to go on a walk everyday this week but I haven’t been out on my bike though.
I really enjoyed my rides on holiday but since being back I can’t seem to get motivated. Matt asked me if I wanted a bike ride – I did want to go but I just couldn’t be bothered. I had that attitude that I couldn’t be bothered to do anything. I get that sometimes when I am bored.
Matt however got his assertive head on and said “get changed we are going on a ride”. I am glad he did as I think I would have sat around and done nothing all day otherwise.
I thought I might just go around the block a few times. But while we were out Matt kept asking if I wanted to go further. As we had gone to the trouble of getting changed and out there I agreed to go further and I’m so glad we did.
It’s lovely cycling in the countryside because you get to appreciate the scenery more than when you drive around the lanes. England is really lovely when the sun is shining. The views can be really amazing. However this was my view!
I felt by the time I got back that I’d had a descent ride. I found it quite a lot easier than I normally do and I didn’t seem to get as tired either. I think it must be because it wasn’t as hot as on holiday and I felt like I had more energy.
I ended up really enjoying my day. I could have sat around and done nothing all day like I wanted to. But I feel I have made good use of my day and I have really accomplished something.
I think the moral of the story is that if you don’t feel like doing something but you end up doing it the rewards are so much greater!
The weight keeps coming off which I am really happy about. However today was a real struggle.
Matt and all the kids went out to watch the rugby today and left me in the house on my own. Usually I would think it was great a bit of peace and quiet, but today I needed them to keep my mind occupied because I felt really hungry. Instead I was very bored which I am sure added to the hunger.
By the end of the day even after dinner there was nothing that could get rid of my hunger at all except eat loads and I wasn’t going to do that. I got to the stage where I just couldn’t cope any more.