Year 2 week 47

19th – 25th November 2017

I am still on my detox, I feel I have been doing quite well. I have started to get really bored with it now though. Partly because the weight has stopped coming off and partly because I am sick of salad.

My exercise has not been quite as good. I think at first I didn’t do too much because I was feeling weak. This week I have managed to up my exercise a little.

I have done something I never thought I would ever see myself do – I have joined a running club. My friend has been going to this club for a while and she has been asking me to go. I have always managed to find some excuse of why not to go so it ended up that she stopped asking me.

I just didn’t want to go – it was also at night which is the time when I relax. I also felt that I would be an embarrassment – not fit enough, and I felt I would always be at the back holding people up. I don’t know what came over me though because I asked my friend if I could go with her this week. I really didn’t want to go I just knew I needed to go.

After I asked her the nerves came over me but I still went. We did an hour of circuit training first and to my surprise I could keep up and I could do most of the things that we were supposed to do.

After that came the running and I have to say all my fears disappeared as I could keep up. They did these little challenges to make it more interesting that I liked. I really enjoyed myself

I didn’t feel embarrassed at all. Well that was until I was in the middle of one of the challenges and we were to run down a cul-de-sac as fast as we could and then run back up again.

On my way down though I tripped over a kerb. I was then heading straight for someone’s front garden fence and, I don’t know how I did it, but I hurdled it and then I was then face to face with a tree that unbelievably I managed to dodge only to be faced with another fence that I also hurdled. I think that all became too much for me because I then went splat in someone else driveway!

Because I was doing quite well and I wasn’t at the back meant I also had an audience. All these people came running to see how I was. Surprisingly though I was fine other than scrapes on my hands and knees.

Everyone was so nice. People who saw me said it was a very impressive fall and was amazed I stayed on my feet for so long. Others came up to me saying how on their first week they did the same thing. My fall, in someways, helped me get to know people and it has made me want to go next week.

One thing I have always told my kids is that sometimes in life there are things that we don’t want to do but when we do it, it can end up being quite rewarding and you never know you might even enjoy it. I think this week I have said that to myself .

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Year 2 week 45

5th- 11th October 2017

Every time I try to lose weight I always do really well at first. The first few stone has always been very easy – it’s probably because I always start a diet with about 7 stone or more to lose!

After the first few stone has come off the next few are slightly more hard work but they do come off gradually. 

Usually after 5 stone has come off I stop. The weight from then on in just doesn’t want to budge. It’s like I have hit a brick wall with absolutely no way of getting around it. 

I have hit that brick wall many times before. I have tried everything to get through but that wall always seems to stay intact. The longest I have ever been there is 6 months and then I give up and ended up turning around and going back again usually putting on more weight than I ever have before. 

This time though is different I have been standing at that wall now for over a year and however hard I try I still can’t break through. 

Since my half marathon and the holidays I have been on over the summer the weight has been gradually creeping back on again – not much but enough for me to notice. I have stayed healthy with my eating but I have had a slightly more relaxed attitude. I think my portion sizes have been getting bigger and some treats were creeping back in too. 

It has got me to a point where I am standing at that wall and wondering what now. 


I feel I can’t go down this journey and gradually put the weight back on again. I have come too far.  There is only one option and that is to try harder.  It means going to the beginning again. You may be thinking that I have done that before and you would be right. 

Last time though I was doing it out of desperation. I had to because I couldn’t continue down the road I was going on. I think my determination came from my desperation to change. 

This time though I have gone back to the beginning without that desperation to change. I feel I have achieved all my goals other than getting to my ideal weight. I have so much more energy, I can go into a regular shop and there would be lots of clothes that would fit, I am eating healthier and lots more. 

Without that desperation to change I wasn’t sure if I could do it. In someways I prefer to start with the desperation because it drives you. Starting again now has been so much harder. 

I am now 10 days in my current detox and I am actually surprised with how well I have done. I have managed to lose 8 pounds in that time. I have felt a little hungry but not as much as I thought. I just hope the weight continues to fall. 

Year 2 week 44

29th October- 4th November 2017

One thing I have really struggled this year with has been motivation.

I think it’s because I achieved one of my main goals this year. One of my goals was to have enough energy to keep up with my kids. My kids are typical kids and have heaps of energy. 

Before I started this journey I couldn’t even walk up the stairs without being out of breath. 16 months later I did a half marathon! 

For me doing that half marathon in Rwanda was so amazing. It was something that I never thought I could ever do. I was so overwhelmed at the time that I did it. That to me that was my ultimate goal. I felt that there was nothing I could do any better than that. I felt that I had climbed the highest mountain and actually reached the top. 

Since then it has been hard staying motivated. The trouble with reaching your goal is that there is nothing left to aim for. Once you reach that point and you get to the top of your mountain there is only one place left to go and that’s DOWN. 

Sometimes to go down can be fun. It means that there are no restrictions on your life. It’s like I can do anything and get away with it. However you do end up with a feeling of guilt that you have let things slip so bad. 

The getting away with it can only last so long. With falling there comes a point where you hit the ground. Hitting rock bottom can be very painful and usually at that point it’s very hard to see a way out of it. 

I feel that since Rwanda that is what I have been doing – FALLING. In my mind though I didn’t want to fall I feel I protected myself from the impact – it’s like I put on my parachute so when I hit the ground it wasn’t so painful. 

This month I have set myself new goals.  I have hit the ground now but I have decided to turn around and start climbing that mountain again. 

I have decided that for the month of November I am going to concentrate on my eating again. I have already had a carb free 4 days and lost a few pounds too. I would like to continue my healthy eating throughout this month and hopefully it will give me the boost I need to continue after. 

I have also signed up for another half marathon – this time in Kenya. It’s in June of next year. I will be raising money again for the charity Compassion UK.

I think for me the fact I am doing it again isn’t quite as significant as before. What it does do though is help me to keep active, gives me something to focus on and I get to help some needy children in Africa in the process. 

I came back from doing my last half marathon thinking I would never do one again. My fitness levels have depleted so much that I feel I have signed up without the ability to succeed. Knowing this is coming hopefully will get me motivated to train.

After June next year, when I’ve completed my second half marathon, I’m hoping that I won’t fall like I did this year. Well that’s what I’m aiming for. 
 

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Year 2 week 41

8th – 14th October 2017

I always thought while going down this journey that losing weight would be so much harder than trying to maintain it. 

I have to admit that I would still love to lose weight and I still have another 3-4 stone to lose. It has actually been a year since I have lost any weight and it has not been without trying. 

I have been at this stage many times in my life but never for a year. Normally after losing so much weight I always plateau. I get to the stage of not being able to lose anymore weight and then after a few months it goes back on again. On a few occasions it has sent me into a depression which has made matters so much worse. 

Here I am a year on and I am still in that place. I am still eating healthy 80% of the time the other 20% are the stages that I really find hard and I slip for a short while. 

I am still exercising too, some weeks are good.  Last year my normal distance was 5k this year it’s 7k sometimes I even go further. 

This week though has been particularly bad. I meet a group of ladies once a week. We all run together. I have always felt that I do ok. I am not the fastest but I am not the slowest either. 

This week though I was so tired that I almost didn’t go. I thought it would do me good so I did go. During the run I was lagging behind so much that I held everybody up. 

It was like I had lost my whole ability to run at all. I was out of breath, my legs were aching so much and my energy levels disappeared so quickly. I just couldn’t keep up at all


I haven’t really ached much after a run for a long time – probably ever since I did my half marathon. This time though I seemed to ache for days. 

On this occasion it had the total opposite effect on me that I would have thought. 

Instead of me thinking I have lost all my ability and end up going down the route of all the bad 20% of my eating habits, it made me more determined instead. I looked at it as a blip and I was happier I went even though I was aching. 

Year 2 week 18

30th April – 6th May 2017

It’s less than a week now until I go to Rwanda and I face a pretty big physical challenge for me.

Training for a half marathon has been really hard. If I think about it now, I think I must have had a moment of madness. It seems a crazy thing to have done.  When I signed up it was something that was totally out of reach – at that time there would have been no way I could have ever done it.

I think one of the reasons I did sign up was because I wanted to continue on this journey I have been going down for the last 16 months. I was finding it hard to stay focused on my goals and I felt I needed a challenge to continue. My focus changed from myself to all the children I will be helping along the way. 

It has taken a lot of grit and determination to train for this event. I don’t think I could have done it though without a few people helping me along the way. 

Matt has been great – he has trained with me on some occasions. He has also been a great encourager. 

There are also a few ladies that I train with once a week. One of those ladies has gone out of her way to help me. One week we went and with no warning I said I wanted to go 8 miles. She was brilliant and totally up for the challenge. This week I told her I wanted to do 10 miles – she went out of her way planning what route to do. 

We did pick the hottest day, but we did it. We actually went 10 miles. Sometimes I think I dreamt it, but I didn’t – we really did it. After, when I got home, I was so happy that I was dancing around the house. I don’t know where I got the energy from. 


For the past 6 weeks I got myself a running coach because I felt I needed all the help I could get. He has been brilliant, he has shown me a few techniques that should make it easier for me when I am running. He has told me where to position my feet with every step, how to swing my arms, to look up, how to breathe and so much more. 

You would think that these things would come naturally that you would automatically know how to swing your arms and breathe. But no – apparently there is a wrong way. So the training with him has been vital and I think I have come on a long way since he joined ‘Team Debbie’!

I think when it comes to doing the half marathon I will have his voice going around in my head telling me to lift my head and control my breathing – much to Matts dismay I’m sure. 

Thank you everyone who has sponsored me too. It shows how much you are all with me in this. If you haven’t yet but want to, tap on the link

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Day 268

Saturday 24th September 2016

I have been on the detox for 6 days now and it is going ok. However I have been feeling really hungry.

The only things I eat on this detox is protein (eggs, meat, fish, nuts or seeds) only one per meal, vegetables and fruit. It’s a little less than what I normally eat. It turns out to be only about 1000 calories a day. 

January was the last time I ate so little and I was out of action for a long time. I also had no energy for a few weeks after the detox. 

What I am amazed about this time is that my calorie intake is so low but I still have plenty of energy – it’s like someone has pressed the power button and left it on. 


Yesterday I had my training. Training while on a detox is not usually advisable because you don’t have enough energy. Yesterday though I coped really well and he even worked me harder than normal. 

The longer I am on the detox the hungrier I am getting but I am losing a pound a day so a little hunger is worth it. I just hope I can continue for 4 more days. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16stlbs.        1lbs⬇️. 75lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.6kg.      0.5kgs⬇️. 34.9kg⬇️total

Day 256

Monday 12th September 2016

Sometimes I get a bit amazed that I am still sticking to my healthy eating plan. 

When I first saw Jenny I started on the metabolic balance programme which is healthy eating especially designed for me. People who do it all get different foods that they can choose from. For instance, I couldn’t eat beef to start with. Beef contains acid and I had to lower the acid levels so I didn’t eat beef for a while. But others might have beef on their list.  I can eat it now though. 

My food diary is a lot more relaxed than when I first started. There are a few phases I have been through

Phase 1 – a two day detox, which was horrible!

Phase 2 – Two weeks of protein and vegetables with no oil or butter which was a little better but not much. I had the shakes a lot and went through food withdrawals and I didn’t have much energy either. 

Phase 3 – The same as phase 2 but I could add oil and butter. This stage was great as I could add a lot more flavour to my food. It took a while though for the shakes to go and to get my energy back but it did return. 

I am now on relaxed phase 3 – it’s the same but a few more foods have been added like beef, oats and a few more vegetables. 

At the beginning Jenny told me that you can live on relaxed phase 3.  I didn’t believe her. At the time I didn’t even think I would get past phase 1!

But I did and I am still going. I feel like the Duracell bunny – I could go on and on and on. 


Eventhough I could keep going it doesn’t stop me on occasions from getting really bored. My food diary now is so much more limiting from what I was eating last year. The only difference is that I was piling on the weight last year and this year it’s doing the opposite. 

So the times I get bored I remember how far I have come and not wanting to go back. 

Ok so my food is a little more limiting but I am also preferring all the flavours now and I don’t think I could ever go back even if I wanted to.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 7lbs.        0.4lbs⬇️.    68lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

104.8kg.     0.2kg⬇️.      31.7kg⬇️total

Day 134

Friday 13th May 2016

Today my personal trainer came. Every week we are now doing the HIIT exercises. The exercises  are going for longer and I am doing more of them. I find I am coping really well, I don’t seem to get too tired after. 

I have noticed that over the last few months my energy levels have gone up. 

Last year when doing my training I would be fit to do nothing for the rest of the day. I would ache a lot and be totally exhausted. 

I have noticed that this year I have had a gradual increase in energy. 

After my training now instead of feeling exhausted I feel reenergised. 

I am constantly amazed how quickly things are improving. I wish I started this healthier life years earlier.

17st 6.7lbs.   ⬅️➡️.    54.3lbs⬇️total

111.0kg.         ⬅️➡️.     25.6kg⬇️total

Day 125

Wednesday 4th May 2016

It was a very busy day today. I was busy doing lots of things and I didn’t seem to get tired once. 4 months ago I wouldn’t have been able to cope and flaked out halfway through the day. 

I saw Jenny the nutritionist today again. My results from my blood test had come in but only that morning. So it was a quick overview instead.


I found the results very interesting. I had improved in a lot of things. I have reduced the risk of getting diabetes, osteoporosis & gout considerably. My fatty acids and lipids in the blood are healthier. 

I have an under active thyroid. For years they haven’t functioned properly, but now they have been awakened. I am now producing T3 &T4  natural cortisol (stress hormone) I hope that means I will be less stressed and not more. It also means that I have more energy. 

My favourite improvement though is the fact that my Uric acid levels in my blood are back in balance. Which means I can finally eat beef.

However there was an issue with my white blood cells. I have had a bad stomach since coming back from holiday. I thought maybe it was because I wasn’t eating as healthily now , even though I am still being healthy. Apparently it looks like I got an infection on holiday and my white blood cells have been exhausted and now they don’t function properly. 

There is a solution though and that is for me to keep taking my apple cider vinegar tablets, probiotics (supplements) and prebiotics that means more of those disgusting veggie smoothies every day. 

17st 10.5lbs.    ⬅️➡️.       50.5lbs⬇️total

112.7kg.           ⬅️➡️.        23.8kg⬇️total

Day 121

Saturday 30th April 2016

The one day I could lie in and I woke up really early – it’s always the way.  I found, though, that I was in the mood to spring clean my room.

I went through all my clothes. It was only a couple of weeks ago that I last did it. However, this time I was throwing away clothes that I have always loved and have worn lots. Surprisingly I found it quite hard. But they had to go as they were too big.

I would usually only have the energy to clean up for a couple of hours but today I lasted all day. My bedroom has never looked so good.

I couldn’t quite believe it this morning when I had finally reached the 50lb down mark. The weight loss had been so slow lately but when it finally hit that target it was amazing.


It’s also good that it’s come on the last day of the month Which means I have managed 50lbs in 4 months. 

It also means that I am half way to my overall goal.

17st 10.9lbs.    0.9lbs⬇️.       50.1lbs⬇️total

112.9kg.            0.4kg⬇️.        23.6kg⬇️total