Year 3 week 28

8th – 15th July 2018

When I was a child I would very often sit in the car with my Mum and Sister. It was ether at Draycote Waters or Weymouth beach. We would sit there for hours while my Dad and Brother would go windsurfing.

When I got a bit older my Dad then taught me. I remember I loved it. Once he even took me away to Sardinia for a week of windsurfing. If I think of my favourite childhood memory of my Dad that holiday would be it. It was a real father-daughter bonding time.

The only bad thing was that we had to share a room and he snores. His bed was over the other side of the room and I could still hear him! Every night I grabbed a pile of socks and placed them by my bed. I would throw them at him every time he kept me awake. I always ran out!

On that holiday my windsurfing really progressed and I have to say that I even got quite good.

That was about 25 years ago. Since then I haven’t got on a board. It hasn’t even been a desire of mine to try it again.

When We recently arrived in Greece I noticed they do refresher windsurfing lessons and I thought I would sign up and see how I would get on. This shocked me more than it did Matt – I don’t know what possessed me to do it.

So this week I have had 2 lessons . I knew my biggest challenge would be getting on the board itself. My upper body strength is basically non existent and worse since I had my op. I have never been able to get on a boat even when it has a ladder.

To my surprise I got on the board several times. I not only got on, I also stood up and on a couple of occasions I was even sailing. I was in the water more than I was on the board though!

I definitely wasn’t as graceful as my drawing either. It should have been a drawing of me falling in rather than sailing with style but that would have been a boring drawing.

However I learnt something with these lessons. It took so much effort to get on the board, standup, get the sail up, make sure you are balanced correctly and then get in the right sailing position. You start to think if all that effort worth it. But then you have that brief moment (for me it really was very brief) when you are doing everything correct and you are actually sailing – that makes all that effort worth it.

Sometimes I look back and remember all the hard work I put in to lose weight and to be more active. These lessons and opportunity to windsurf again have made all that hard work worth it.


Year 3 week 1

1st – 7th January 2018

My eating in December was so bad that now we have hit January it’s all systems go.

There is a saying that I hear every new year and that is ‘New Year, New You’ and I always go by it. I make new years resolutions to try to improve certain situations and I have to say that this year is no different.

The year always starts well and as the months roll by those resolutions have gradually slipped. That’s definitely how last year went anyway!

For now though I am going for it. I have decided to give myself a challenge every month.

I have decided that my challenge this month is swimming. I have been using a pool that is 15 meters in length and the challenge is to swim 2018 lengths this month.

I set it on the 1st and thought for me to achieve this goal I will need to swim 100 lengths a day with 2 days off a week.

My challenge has started well and the first few days it was good. But once I got to days 3 and 4 it was taking its toll. Towards the end of the week it was getting easier.

I am not really finding this challenge easy. When I set it I thought it would be a challenge but not a huge push. I am finding it quite a chore though.

I have however managed to make the effort every day this week and I have already knocked 600 lengths off that target.

My eating has improved this month but it’s not perfect with all this extra swimming. I’m finding I am getting extra hungry which isn’t always good when you are trying to cut down.

Maybe I can do better next week.

Day 328

Wednesday 23rd November 2016

I am one of those people who always has a shower and very rarely has a bath. I think the last time I had a bath must have been about 5 years ago. 

I like having baths but for me it is usually quite an ordeal. One reason is because there just isn’t a bath big enough. 

I also find when I have a bath -I get in and the water gets out, causing more work drying the bathroom floor!

So I would fill up the water while I am in the bath. When I am in the bath I am so wedged in that I can’t move which means I can’t turn the taps off usually ending up with more water on the floor.

Once I have found a comfortable position the bath is nice even though I can’t move. 

Then comes the biggest ordeal of all -getting out the bath. Usually it would entail more water on the floor. So I got to a point of emptying the bath while I was still in it. 

However because I was so wedged in the water between me and the plug hole went down but the water furthest away from the plug hole didn’t!

Once the water was gone I then had to physically get out. Trying to get a 22 stone person out of the bath was so exhausting and it took me at least 5 minutes to do it. 

So that is why I always had showers. However, lately I have been having baths again. 

This time though I didn’t have any of the issues, I wasn’t wedged in like normal, there was in fact plenty of room to manoeuvre. I could reach the taps but most importantly I could get out with ease. The best part though that there was no water on the floor!

On reflection it was a bit sad the state I had got myself in which previously made doing simple things very difficult – I’m so glad I have changed. 

So all in all quite a pleasant experience. I think I might have more baths from now on. 

Day 279

Wednesday 5th October 2016

Back in January when I had to have a blood test to check my metabolic balance the results came back that I was extremely dehydrated. Jenny said that she hadn’t ever seen anyone so dehydrated. 

At that time I had to drink 4 litres of water a day. Also at that time I was really hungry and I couldn’t eat any food between my meals so drinking water was my only option. 

I found it really hard but eventually I got to the point where I could drink 3 litres a day. It was odd but the less I had to drink the more I struggled with it. The fact that I wasn’t feeling so hungry any more made my want to drink water less. It didn’t stop the fact that I needed it. 

Water now is still the one thing I struggle with. However hard I try I just can’t seem to drink enough. 

I am however starting to realise the signs of dehydration. One thing I notice is that my weight doesn’t move which can be very frustrating. I also feel really bloated which can cause the scales to rise. My tongue starts to feel dry. 

I can also feel really hungry. I think thirst can be mistaken for hunger sometimes, I have fallen into that trap so many times before. I have eaten something when really I just need a drink. 

Lately I have been feeling like I am dehydrated with the hunger, bloating and dry tongue.

So for the last few days I have been drinking a pint of water before each meal and making sure I drink at least 2 small bottles between the meals too. I think it is working. I don’t feel as hungry or bloated as I did. The scales haven’t gone down as yet but I am confident they will soon. 

So drinking water makes me feel a lot better and I need to keep it up. But I think that is easier said than done. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

15st 13.8lbs. ⬅️➡️. 75.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.6kg. ⬅️➡️. 34.9kg⬇️total

Day 223

Wednesday 10th August 2016

When the kids were little a question they always asked was WHY? They wanted to know why over everything – it used to drive me mad.

If you think about it though there are a whole load of situations you could ask why to. Why is there so much suffering in the world, why is there so much injustice, why when you drop toast it always lands butter side down. The list is endless.

The thing is if we sat down and seriously tried to find answers to all our whys I think we would go mad trying and never get all the answers. 

This year I have been doing this lifestyle change and I have had so many WHY? questions. 

The latest is why do the scales go up when I have still eaten really healthily?

I have always found when I am on a diet that the scales don’t constantly go down every week. I find that even when I have done well the scales can sometimes go up.

At first, when you are on a diet, the weight comes off really easy. After a while it starts to slow down and then it gets a lot harder. That’s when the real work begins. 

I wouldn’t say I have been on a diet this year – I am calling it a lifestyle change. It still means I am losing weight but I am getting healthier and making choices that are forever and not just for a season. 

My health has improved so much this year.  I have gone from taking 10 pills a day to almost nothing. I only have one issue and that is I get frequent stomach aches. When I have them my weight goes up. 

I decided to do a little test. I noticed that the days I got the stomach aches I wasn’t drinking enough water. So yesterday I wanted to see what happens when I drink more. 

I have always found it a struggle to consume the correct amount of water daily. Drinking lots of water means that I need to go to the toilet regularly and I think that is the most common reason of why people don’t drink enough water. However we need that amount of water to clear out our system and make us healthier.

After my little test I realised it was the lack of water that was giving me my stomach aches as they are now starting to ease and this morning my weight went down again. 

It sounds stupid that you have to consume more water to lose weight but it works. I am just happy that I have the answer to my question . 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 7.2lbs.       0.5lbs⬇️. 67.8lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

104.9kg.         0.2kg⬇️. 31.4kg⬇️total

Day 214

Monday 1st August 2016

Today I am sitting in the car on our drive home from our holiday in France.

I always find that when you travel you get totally dehydrated normally I would go in the nearest service station and buy myself a Coke. 

When I go out for a meal I would always order a Coke or diet Coke. 

At one time in my life I always had Coke or some kind of pop in the house. It has been many years now that I only buy it on certain occasions. I tried to ween myself and the kids off it and we drank a lot of squash instead.

Since I have been on my lifestyle change I have only been able to drink water or black tea. Considering that before I only drank squash, tea with milk and the occasional Coke I, at first, I found it really hard. 

I have never been much of a drinker of alcohol. I don’t like wine but I have been know to have the occasional cocktail. So losing alcohol never bothered me at all.

I found changing my squash to water the hardest. But I also found eating out hard because I couldn’t have my usual Coke. 

I don’t have sugar in anything anymore (only natural sugars).  A can of Coke contains 10 spoons of sugar and a small bottle contains 17. Diet Coke, eventhough it is less calories, the sugar substitutes are not much better. So I can see why it was never allowed on my food list. 

However when you go out socially and all you are drinking is water it can be very boring. 

Jenny has told me that I can have some  natural cordial like elderflower and drink it with sparkling water. I have to say when eating out it definitely makes a difference. Most of the time I am still drinking water but if I go out now at least I can drink something with a bit more flavour.

No weigh in

Day 154

Thursday 2nd June 2016

154 days into this diet, I can’t believe I have stuck to it for so long. I think it’s because it’s not really a diet but a lifestyle change. 

For years I have wanted to lose weight but nothing worked. Seeing Jenny the nutritionist is the best thing I have ever done – even though it has not been easy at times. 

If it works I will do it, is my philosophy. So I have stuck to the 8 rules really easily because I see that it’s working. 

However one of the 8 rules I am finding incredible difficult. I can’t seem to drink the correct amount of water a day. 

I wake up with good intentions to try but by the end of the day I have failed miserably. 

Being properly hydrated is really important but I can’t seem to do it.  It seems weird that this is the thing I can’t  do because it sounds so simple. 

All I can do is try again tomorrow.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

17st 3.4lbs.    0.2⬆️.    . 57.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 135.6 kg

109.5kg.       0.1⬆️.         27.1kg⬇️total

Day 91

Thursday 31st March 2016

I have always loved the water. When I was a kid on holidays you couldn’t get me out of the pool. In recent years, while I still loved the water, I really couldn’t get out of it when we went snorkelling or diving. It was because I couldn’t get back on the boat! It took me forever. I used all my strength and then I did it in the most unlady like way ever. I would hit the deck like a tub of lard.  

Today I went snorkelling with the kids and when it came to getting back in the boat, it was so much easier.  I didn’t even need any help.

I knew before I came away that drinks were going to be a problem. There was nothing I could choose to drink other than water or tea. For the last few days I have been drinking iced fruit tea. 

It kind of tastes like squash but it has really helped me feel like I am not missing out. 

Day 82

Tuesday 22nd March 2016

It has been a very busy day, I have not had much time to think about food however it also meant I didn’t think about drinking water either.

With Easter looming, the kids are getting a lot of Easter eggs. We are away over Easter so I have said that the kids could have their eggs now.


I always thought that I was a chocoholic but I haven’t eaten chocolate this year at all yet. When I saw Jenny yesterday she says I can eat it as long as it contains 70% Cocoa.

It tasted ok – not as good as cadburys, but I think I could get used to it.

18st 7.7lbs.    ⬅️➡️.       39.3lbs⬇️total