Day 353

Sunday 18th December 2016

Today is my forth Christmas event in 4 days. However today I can control what I eat better because it is at our house. 

Every year, always the Sunday before Christmas, we host an evening we call ‘A Very Dickens Christmas’. Everyone who wants to dresses up in Dickensian outfits and the whole evening is candle lit. 


We invite a lot of friends and people from church it’s like our end of year treat. I look forward to it all year.

Everyone who comes brings a dessert and drinks. The table is usually piled up with delicious cakes, biscuits and desserts. All I can say is it is Debbie heaven. 

However this year I didn’t go near it. In fact I couldn’t stand the smell of it, the whole room smelt sweet and it made me feel sick. It’s a Debbie heaven no more. 

Even though I didn’t eat it didn’t mean I didn’t have fun. In fact I had a great time. I think people think the best way to socialise is to eat together, however this year I have learnt I can still socialise and have a good time without eating. 

For the first year ever I have been in the party and I didn’t eat the desserts –  I feel very proud of myself and I’m perfectly happy. 

So who says you need to eat to have fun. 

Day 324

Saturday 19th November 2016

We live in a house where there are a lot of trees in our garden. I love the trees but at this time of year they drop their leaves everywhere. 

For the last month or so I have watched the boys and Matt blowing them off the drive. I thought it looked like a fun job to do, so today I decided to have a go. 

I soon realised it wasn’t as much fun as it looked. The blower was really heavy to hold for so long, then the leaves would go in every direction except the way you wanted them to go. It didn’t take me too long to to get fed up. 

When I was finished Matt said ‘now look up’.  All I could see were the trees with loads more leaves that will drop off soon. 


It made me think that the job I had just done was useless because it will need doing all over again tomorrow. 

In some way this is how I think it’s like to be on a diet. It sounds a good thing to do at first, then you start and you find out it’s hard work. Then the weight stops going down and when you look up you realise you’ve got a lot more ahead of you.

I am at the stage where my weight just isn’t going down and realised that I still have a lot of work to do.  It’s like I’ve looked up and seen all those leaves on the trees which still need to be cleared. 

The thing is if Matt and the boys had left those leaves over the past month there would have been such a build up now and the job would have been worse. 

There is also a time when there will be no more leaves and they won’t have to do the job anymore but while your in it the job seems like it’s endless. 

I do feel like I am fighting a never ending battle but if I keep going I’ll get there in the end – I hope. 

Day 286

Wednesday 12th October 2016

Jenny had told me that I need to start doing some more exercises, she thinks I should start going to exercise classes.

For a couple of weeks now I have been going to Pilates. I knew it was going to be different exercises from what I am used to but I thought I would cope ok because I am fitter than I used to be. It’s a gentle exercise rather than the faster pace of running, boxing and cycling. 

I found it quite difficult though. I think I would rather go running than have to hold my leg up in the air for a minute using only my core strength. A lot of the exercises I just couldn’t do. I found myself wobbling all over the place. 

I do like the fact though that I couldn’t do everything because it gives me something to aim for. And hopefully as the weeks progress I will improve. 

Another class I have done today is clubbercise. It is basically aerobics to 80’s music in the dark. You have a glow stick in each hand creating streaks of multicoloured lights as you move.

It felt like I had stepped back in time and we were at a school disco being the naughty kids mucking around at the back.


It was the funniest thing I have done in a long time. 

As I haven’t been before and it was too dark to see the instructor at the front, I decided to follow the woman in front of me. She however was going about 3 times quicker than I could cope with and I ended up doing my own thing and looking very silly in the process. 

It was however the best time I have had exercising. who says exercise is boring. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

15st 13.8lbs. ⬅️➡️. 75.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.6kg. ⬅️➡️. 34.9kg⬇️total

Day 221

Monday 8th August 2016

While the kids are off school I try to take them places that will entertain them and keep them occupied. I find in the summer they can quite easily get bored. 

Today we got an invitation to go for a picnic. We have been on picnics a few times before and the kids have always enjoyed them. I knew the kids would like it having other children to play with so we decided to go. 

We filled the car with bikes, scooters, skateboards and anything that would entertain them. We also made ourselves a picnic.


We made up sandwiches,  took sausage rolls, crisps and cake all things you would usually put in a picnic basket. 

This was the first time I have had a picnic since I have changed to eating healthier. Packing up a picnic with food I could eat was not really that difficult. I managed to make myself a ham salad and I took an apple. It didn’t bother me that the kids were eating sandwiches and cake because I really enjoyed my salad.

What I did like about it is the fact I can still go out and join other people, chat have a laugh and not feel like I am missing out or being deprived. 

I find most things I do socially all revolves around food. I may have changed my diet, but it’s nice to know that socially some things remain the same.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 7.4lbs.       ⬅️➡️.    . 67.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

105kg.          ⬅️➡️.        31.5kg⬇️total