Year 3 week 25

18th – 24th June 2018

This week has been very uninteresting really. Nothing amazing has happened, nothing is coming up in the near future I need to prepare for and there is nothing I really need to train for anymore either. In fact after my time away in Kenya I feel this week is a bit of an anticlimax.

I have spent all of this year and part of last year training to do that half marathon in Kenya. It has been what I have focused on for months and now I don’t need to do it anymore. In someways I am a bit sad but it also has its benefits.

One thing I have realised is how much I have neglected my kids in that time. It means I am spending more time with them and concentrating on their needs more which is definitely a bonus. The kids have been great and very understanding and incredible supportive throughout that time.

Another thing I have neglected is my nutrition. With all that exercise came extra eating to give me more energy to complete my challenges. Since increasing the exercise you would think I would lose weight but no, I haven’t lost any at all. In fact I have probably put it on rather than lose it.

So I have decided to use this time to concentrate on what I am eating. Over the last 2 half years I have learnt a lot especially about nutrition. I have learnt the best way to lose weight, what food does to your body, what kind of food I should and shouldn’t be eating and if I don’t remember any of it Jenny, my nutritionist, would soon remind me.

I feel now that I have all the tools I need and they are stacked neatly on the wall not being used. I might look at them from time to time debating whether to use them or not.

I am not in denial – I know if I started to use those tools that it wouldn’t be easy. However this week I have come to the realisation that there is no point having them if they are not going to be used. An unused tool is totally useless and has no benefit to anyone.

So I have decided that from tomorrow I am actually going to start using them. I have decided that for 2 weeks I am going to cut out artificial sugars and basically go back to the beginning again.

I know this is going to be really difficult for me but I feel, as I am confessing it, it will hopefully keep me accountable and in some ways make it easier.

So for once I actually have the right tools and I know how to use them. The challenge now is whether I can use them efficiently.


Day 343

Thursday 8th December 2016

On the very odd occasion I like to bulk buy. It’s usually around Christmas time I go and get all the Christmas treats. 

Treats are a thing of the past for me, especially sweets. I love sweets.  I used to always have some in the car or my hand bag. The best thing is they are small and you can just pop one in your mouth at any time, and I did I can tell you. 

I have realised today that I haven’t had sweets at all this year. At the beginning of the year I really struggled not being able to just pop a sweet in my mouth. I missed it so much. 

Today though as I walked around Costco my reaction to them was so much different than previous years. As I looked at the shelves full of sweets I realised that I don’t really miss them now at all.

Normally I would have come home with a few boxes and said that they were for Christmas or the kids, and probably eaten them myself before Christmas anyway! This year though, I looked at them thinking we don’t really need them so I left them on the shelves and walked away. 

I could also smell them – I didn’t realise they had much of a smell but for some reason this year I could smell them and they smelt like sugar. I didn’t think sugar really had a smell but it did and it made me feel sick just being near them. 

It made me realise what a turnaround you can do in a year. 

Day 330

Friday 25th November 2016

Since Grant my eldest son passed his driving test on Tuesday. Matt and myself have had so much more free time. 

It feels really weird one of us not taking them to school. We still get up early to check they have everything before they go. 

At the beginning of this year when I first started the metabolic balance, breakfast was my worst meal of the day. 

Before this year I never had a cooked breakfast, in fact the thought of it made me feel sick. I always had cereal with plenty of sugar on. 

But now sugar just isn’t on the menu. The only sugars I can eat are natural sugars like the sugar in fruit – though I have to watch the amount I have. 

For the last few months I have been eating granola cereal with almond milk and since I started to have that I have enjoyed my breakfasts. I have found that I have had it most mornings since.

However it’s not good to have the same every day. Jenny has always said that I need to have a bit more variety. The thing is time, it’s not always convenient to cook a breakfast every morning. 

Since we are not doing the school run any more Matt and I are finding time to make a cooked breakfast. 

Considering I never liked having a cooked breakfast I am enjoying them. I think it’s because my cravings for sugar are gone now. 

What is really good is that it gives Matt and I some nice time together giving us a chance to talk and catch up on things. I do find that sometimes life gets in the way. So taking time to talk is always good. 

Day 266

Thursday 22nd September 2016

Day 4 of detox was the worst day last time. It was the day I got the shakes really bad, my emotions were all over the place and I couldn’t concentrate at all. I think I spent most of the day in bed because I couldn’t cope. 

At the time I was going through cold turkey on sugar and it was the final stages of the sugar leaving my system which is why it was the worst day. 

I was also ready to quit on day 4 last time. I had hit a brick wall and I couldn’t see a way through it. If I hadn’t have rang Jenny I think I would have quit.

Today is day 4 of detox again. Things are so different – quite frankly I have hardly noticed. No shakes, no erratic emotions my cold is even getting better.

There was a time a few weeks ago that I didn’t think my weight was ever going to move. Lately though, even before the detox, I have been losing weight constantly. This hasn’t happened for so long. I feel like I have had a real breakthrough.

5lbs in one week is some going considering I have been going for so long now. That is the type of weight loss you get in the beginning of a diet not 9 months in.  I just hope it continues 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 2lbs.       0.4lbs⬇️. .      73lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

102.5kg.         0.2kgs⬇️.        34kg⬇️total

Day 172

Monday 20th June 2016

I always thought I was addicted to sugar. Last year I put sugar on my cereal.  I would eat I don’t know how many chocolate bars a day. So I think last year I was addicted to sugar. 

For years I have been a secret eater. My philosophy was that if no one saw me eat it, it didn’t happen. I would have a stash of chocolate and sweets hidden in many different places and eat it when no one was looking. 

I did a lot of baking and all the things I made would contain lots of sugar

I always knew that sugar is bad for you but I said to myself that I needed it to survive. 

When I did the detox back on day 28 it was the worst thing that I have ever been through. For the first 4 days I went through withdrawals I had the shakes, hunger pains and I was incredibly tired. I went cold turkey from sugar. 

Since then I have not had one craving, I have not had one slip up, I have not been tempted to eat anything sweet. I very often sit around a dinner table and have to look at nice desserts but it doesn’t bother me.  I can take it or leave it, but I tend to,most of the time, leave it.

Even though cold turkey was the worst thing I did while I was going through it, now it is by far the best thing I ever did.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 13.6lbs.     0.2lbs⬆️. . 61.8lbs⬇️total

Start weight 135.6 kg

107.8kg.       0.1lbs⬆️.        29kg⬇️total