19th – 25th February 2017
Most times I have dieted I have done quite well and lost lots of weight. This time is no different.
However there has always been one problem and that is I have always put the weight back on again.
When you are losing weight and you see the scales go down every week it’s quite exciting and it really spurs you on to do well the following week.
But there has always come a time in a diet when I stop losing weight. For some reason the scales just don’t go down. That is the stage I am at now. Since October of last year I haven’t really lost much weight.
This is where in the previous diets I have put the weight back on again. I have always got so frustrated, annoyed and I have even gone through a season of depression in the past.
Now that I am at the same stage again I feel that I could do the same again. I have to admit that I am frustrated and slightly annoyed that the scales are no longer going down. But there is a difference – one thing Jenny has taught me is to ignore the scales and just be consistent.
I have been really good at ignoring the scales – it’s the consistency I am having a problem with.
Consistency is hard and it can be very boring too. As I said, when the scales go down it can be really exciting and keep you motivated, but when it doesn’t it gets really boring.
Jenny tells me that consistency is the key. However what does that key unlock. I would love it to unlock a book that tells me the easiest way to carry on.
Unfortunately that is not going to happen (I can dream though). I am finding being consistent the hardest challenge I have faced so far.
I think I am feeling like this because I have not long had my operation and I am not fully active again yet. I am longing to start exercising again which is an unusual thing for me to say because I have usually been happy to be a couch potato.
It shows how much I have changed on this journey and I am going to try my hardest to continue!
12th – 18th February 2017
This week, for some reason, since the op I have felt a lot more uncomfortable. I haven’t been in pain as such – it’s more just sore and every now and then I get a sharp pain up my arm.
The worst part though is that I have still been having to wear the compression suit. I am getting used to it a bit more. It does however make me look really funny.
It gives me a funny shape. I think now I am looking a lot like a pear.
It’s like I am slim on the top half and not so much at the bottom half.
My youngest son said to me the other day “mum, you are looking really good, however your belly is now really swollen.” I did see the funny side of his comment – you can always rely on the kids to tell you the truth.
The body suit is so tight. It covers my arms and back and finishes just above the waist. I think it must be a bit like wearing a corset. In the days when corsets were worn they would wear a big full skirt to hide what comes below it. It doesn’t look quite so good with trousers on.
For the last 3 weeks I have been wearing the suit for 24 hours a day. As of Friday I only need to wear it 12 hours a day.
When Friday came I couldn’t wait to take it off. For at least 12 hours a day I can now feel normal. It’s the 12 hours I have to wear it I don’t like. At least I can be asleep for at least 8 hours of it.
Even though I am a funny shape I am really happy with the results. Things are so much better. I don’t have any saggy skin on my arms and my back. I am improving everyday.
I still have quite a lot of swelling though and I have a long way to go until I am fully healed but I think it will all be worth it in the end.
4th – 11th February 2017
I find in life that you can live a lot of contradictions. For instance I find myself a lot having to shout at the kids to be quiet.
I have to shout sometimes though just to be heard.
I have also found that much of what I have learnt about nutrition is a contradiction to what is normally taught. Like having butter and oil instead of low fat alternatives.
Apparently fat burns fat, so by using the proper butter and oil in its natural state is so much better for you than low fat products because of all the preservatives used in them.
Since my operation I find I am living another contradiction. I spent all of last year losing weight, doing lots of exercise and generally getting physically stronger in myself. The operation was to get rid of the excess skin that was left behind.
However I find that since the operation I have needed to rest. I have not been on any walks, I have not been for a run, I have done no exercise at all. I am finding that against my will I am getting lazy because I can’t really do much. I can’t even pick up anything heavier than a cup of tea.
I am finding it fairly frustrating. Going from being very active to not active at all is taking its toll.
I have not changed my eating habits but I feel like I am putting on weight. I can’t tell at the minute because the swelling I have got since the operation doesn’t give me a true reading of my weight. It is just my own opinion.
I did talk to Jenny about it and she has told me not to worry. She also reminded me of when I first went on the detox and that I couldn’t exercise for a few months and I still lost weight. She said it’s like that for me again now.
It doesn’t stop me worrying that I am putting on weight even though I am trying my hardest to lose it.
Living a contradiction isn’t always the easiest thing to do but I have no choice and it will have to end at some point.
29th January- 4th February 2017
We have had a few problems with my car lately. My car had been working really well and then all of a sudden things started to go wrong.
We looked under the bonnet to find lots of items that shouldn’t be there like corks from wine bottles and other rubbish from our bin.
We were a bit confused for a minute and then we realised that we had some mice living in the engine. The reason the car was not working properly was because they were chewing through the wires in the car.
The car would still go but not to the best of its ability. That is the only way I could explain how I have been feeling this week.
After the operation I had last week I feel that I am recovering really well but I am not quite going on all cylinders yet.
I have not been in too
much pain thankfully. Touch me, though, and I flinch. I have bruises all over my back and arms but it looks worse than it feels.
The worst part of it is that I have to wear a compression outfit. The only way I can describe it is that it’s like wearing a really tight wetsuit that is 3 sizes to small. And I have to wear it all day everyday.
I am getting use to it a little bit more though. I have to take it off from time to time to have a shower and wash. When it’s off I feel slightly exposed and sensitive, I can also be in a little more pain without it. The reason for wearing it is to reduce the swelling.
So really, even though I don’t like it, I can see the benefits.
My car however is not in as good a shape as me and I think it will take a lot longer to fix. It’s a good job I can’t drive at the minute!