Year 2 week 43

22nd – 28th October 2017

This week has been quite an emotional week. For about a year now our church have had a women’s mission trip to Serbia planned. Nine women were on the team and I was one of them.

We were going to do a women’s retreat and help surport a charity called Choose Life. It’s a charity that helps young pregnant women.  There aim is to prevent abortion and help the mothers with there babies. 

When it was booked Matt was going to go on a cycling trip for another charity called The Message Trust. His trip was in Israel and he was to cycle from the Red to the Dead Sea.

Matts trip was the beginning of October and mine was near the end it meant we could both go on these trips, so we booked in. Since booking Matts trip changed to the same time as mine. He left about 5 days before I did though.

We did try and look for someone to stay in our house but to no avail. It meant that I was leaving for Serbia and the kids were going to be home alone for 5 days.

Before I left I was freaking out. The thought of leaving the kids home alone was not helping my nerves at all. Even though 3 of them are teenagers and are old enough to look after Jake who is 9 it didn’t stop me worrying. The nearer it got to me leaving the more freaked out I was getting. By the time I left I was a nervous wreck. 

My week in Serbia was amazing the retreat went really well. At the retreat I got to speak and share my story on becoming a mother all about our road to adoption. I think a few people from our team learnt alot of things they didn’t know about me. I got to learn a lot about them too.

I also got very creative there too we got to do a few workshops that were fun. It was just good to meet new people.

One thing I went to Serbia for was to paint a picture on the wall of the Choose Life centre it was a picture I drew about 4 years ago and since then I have dreamed of painting it on there wall. They were excited about it and I thought it was an honour to do it. 

The lady who runs the charity asked me to name her. I decided I wanted to call her Nada which means hope in Serbian.

While I was away I hardly had time to worry about the kids and what they were getting up to at home. I called a few times But I just decided to trust them and enjoy my time away.

I am now home and I was very happy to see that the house was still standing, that I still did have 4 kids intact and they hadn’t killed each other and that basically there wasn’t any problems.

I think the moral of the story is to not worry about what you can’t control and trust that it will all work out. As a family we have a bible verse we abide by it’s in

Matthew 6:34.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I think I just forgot for a while there.


Day 215

Tuesday 2nd August 2016

After traveling for 13 hours in the car, we finally made it home this morning.

We travel to France so often that I am very used to it by now. We usually go in the winter, skiing, and for the summer.

I have never really minded the journey before. This time however I noticed a big difference. 

I seemed to have so much more room in my seat. It’s like I’ve shrunk!!!

I am happy the seat was so big this time as it gave me more space to move around in. It was a lovely feeling having more room. I haven’t really appreciated it before.

I have never really noticed being cramped but I do find that at the end of such a long journey I get restless legs and usually a few hours before the end of a long journey I am desperate to get out. I am usually in pain the next day too. 

This time I have had none of that. It must have been because of the extra space!

No weigh in

Day 196

Thursday 14th July 2016

Started the day this morning at 3am. We spent the day in the car driving to France 16 hours later we arrived at our first destination where we will be staying for a few days. 

Our main summer holiday every year is usually somewhere we can drive to as Matt likes to take his bike. 

I have been married for 20 years this year and this is the first year ever that I have taken a bike too. 

We always pick a holiday destination in the hills as Matt loves to cycle up them. The harder the hill the better it is for him. I however don’t think that I will cope with that too much. But I have to admit that I am looking forward to riding especially because the kids have also brought there bikes. 

One of the things I said I wanted to do at the beginning of the year was to do more activities with the family. This is definitely a goal that hopefully I will accomplish this holiday. 

No weigh in today. 

Day 195

Wednesday 13th July 2016

I find packing very stressful. I love holidays but really hate the packing. 

I usually start to prepare a few weeks before by getting clothes washed, ironed and ready to go. This time I have been very disorganised. So I have been trying to get things done last minute. 

Always when I go away I pack far too much.

This holiday we are driving so it a case of cram it all in the car. 

I find when I am busy and tired I forget to think on what I am going to eat. Today I have had to make a conscious effort to think before I eat. 

I feel I have done ok, I have even managed to prepare myself a chicken salad for tomorrow just in case, so I won’t have to eat in a service station and get tempted. 

I am just looking forward to the holiday to start now. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 11.2lbs.   0.4lbs⬇️.   63.8lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

106.7kg.     0.2kg⬇️.     29.8kg⬇️total

Day 85

Friday 25th March 2016

Today is Good Friday, and I have to say for me it really was good for a number of reasons.

1) I am going on holiday

2) I have lost 3 stone as of this morning 

3) I am sitting on the plane and for the first time in 4 years I can do up the seat belt with no trouble and I have had to even tighten it


4) When I put the table down it doesn’t sit on my stomach any more (you may think that is trivial but it’s a big deal to me)

5) I am spending time with lots of family for 2 weeks

Today was my last weigh in for 2 weeks

18st 4.8lbs.    2lbs⬇️.     42.2lbs⬇️total

Day 84

Thursday 24th March 2016

Today was another busy day, as tomorrow we are going on holiday so I was busy packing.

When I started this diet I was hoping to lose 2 stone at this point, but to have lost 3 nearly is quite unbelievable.

I had so much to do today that I totally forgot to eat lunch, something I mustn’t do. It was 4pm by the time I realised. So I had to wait for dinner instead.

I managed to take another photo today 

20th Jan – 24th march

18st 6.8lbs.       0.9lbs⬇️.    40.2lbs⬇️total