Year 2 week 30

23rd- 29th July 2017

I have always loved the summer, it’s usually warmer, it’s a time to go on holiday, it’s time to relax and wind down. 

Since I have been going down this weight loss journey, and I am now half way through my second summer, I find that the summer is also the hardest. 

Summertime is when all routine is gone. I am a person who likes routine. Routine means you know what is coming and you can prepare for it.

In the summer it’s always been see where the day takes me, no particular plans. Trying to lose weight with no routine is the hardest. It’s like I can’t concentrate on my goals, I am totally lacking in focus. 

This week I have spent a few days at a conference called Focus. I was hoping, because of the name, it might help me with my focus. 

One thing that was said was “don’t think that God is invisible – his fingerprints are all over your life” 

One thing I have noticed over the past 18 months is how much help God has actually given me. How even through the hard times he has been right there by my side. 

Here I am going through another hard time. Finding it hard to stay focused on my ultimate goal. One thing, though, that I am forgetting is that God is there beside me leaving his fingerprints. I just forgot to look for them. 


Year 2 week 29

16th – 22nd July 2017

We have had a lovely 2 week holiday. We have been doing all the normal things you do on holiday. Like relaxing in the sun, exploring new places, swimming in the pool, eating in nice restaurants. 

Because we have had a normal holiday also means that the normal has happened. I have put on a few pounds. Normally when I go on holiday I put on loads of weight, I get used to eating more and when I come home I don’t change my habits back again. 

We went on holiday with a couple that we’ve become friends with this year. We met because she was doing a half marathon in Rwanda with me and her husband did the marathon. 

Three of my sons came too.  My youngest was wanting to do all these clapping games with us. You basically say a poem and clap out a routine with our hands. 

While we were doing this with my son, I remembered a time when I would do the same at school. It was all the craze in those days, you would sing a silly song and then clap out a routine with our hands. I spent so much time practicing at break time and any other opportunity I could get. I remember loving it. 

As I was telling Jake (my son) Michelle (my friend from Rwanda) commented that she did the same at school too. We thought we would try and remember it and teach Jake. 

To our surprise we remembered it really well. We remembered the words the routine and everything. Not only that, we could do it quite fast. It was like we only did it yesterday.

Jake thought it was hilarious and couldn’t stop laughing at us. We then went on to teach him. He did eventually get it after practicing for the whole 2 weeks. 

It has got me thinking. I have had 18 months of really good eating habits, 18 months of making good choices – why should I let 2 weeks of bad eating habits drag me down. 

That clapping game came back to me after not doing it for over 30 years. I should be able to get back on the healthy eating after just a 2 week break!

Year 2 week 28

9th- 15 th July 2017

The kids have now broken up from school which means the summer holidays have started. I like it when the summer holidays are here but it can also mean that my usual routine has gone. 

Trying to start a new routine can be hard. I like not getting up so early in the mornings but everything else can be tough. 

Always as soon as the kids break up from school we head off for our summer holidays. I always find the run up very busy. I’m busy packing and getting things organised for our holiday. I can never seem to relax on the run up. 

By the time we are away the holiday is always well deserved – everyone is tired and needs the break. 

I however find it really hard to relax. I am not a person who can relax by the pool or the beach for very long. 

I can sit there for a few minutes and then I get really bored. It usually takes me a good few days to unwind. When I do though I can start to enjoy myself. 

A big part of holidays is the food. It tends to be different from home. One of my weaknesses is the bread, especially when we go to France. The French bread is something that I can’t resist, it’s so nice. 

I feel I have not been as motivated this year as I was last year but I am surprised that 9 times out of 10 I am managing to resist the bread. I am generally keeping my good habits that I have created over the last 18 months. But I am a little more relaxed than last year with the odd treat creeping in here and there. 

I have decided to still watch what I eat, but not beat myself up over having a treat once in a while.  

Year 2 week 27

2nd – 8th July 2017

This time is a busy time of year for me. At the end of the school year there is always so much to do with sports days and presentations and I am usually packing for holiday too. 

This year is no different except that instead of packing for 6 people this year it’s like 8. It’s because my kids are going to so many different places over the summer. One of my sons has left on a school hockey and cricket tour in Sri Lanka for 2 weeks and he goes from there to India doing some missionary work for a month. Two of my other sons have come with us on holiday but as soon as we get home they go off to Serbia on mission hence so much packing.

With so much to do means that I lose focus on my goal of losing weight. My eating habits are not as bad as they were 18 months ago but I feel that on occasions I do let things slip a little though. 

I still have that problem of looking in the mirror and seeing me the same way I always have. I sometimes struggle to think I have changed at all. These struggles are things that I face all the time and they can be very disheartening. It actually makes me feel a bit of a fraud – like I have been lying about my progress over the past 18 months. Then when I lose a little focus the feeling is worse. 

When I feel like that I just think of where I have come from. 18 months ago I didn’t have the energy to keep going all day. I was over 5 stone heavier and I definitely couldn’t have ever ran a half marathon. 

Sometimes though I get reminders in the little things like the fact that I can go shopping and buy clothes in a much smaller size than I use too, I try clothes on they are more likely to be too big than too tight, that I can get off the sofa in seconds and without pain rather than it taking me over 5 minutes. 

The latest thing that reminds me is the fact after I have a shower and I only need one towel to wrap around me rather than 2!

It is one thing that I have noticed lately. I get slightly overwhelmed every time I wrap a towel around me and I can tie it. I half expect that I still need 2! It also means I can use the second towel to dry my hair. 

These little things help to remind me that I am not a fraud. I have done better than what the mirror translates in my mind and even though I get set backs it helps me to move forward.

Year 2 week 26

25th June – 1st July 2017

I have been a person who has been brought up on cars. The family business is cars and when I was younger my Dad imported cars into the country from places like Japan, Korea and China. My brother now runs the company. 

Because of the family business I got to go to the motor show, the royal show and a lot of other motor events each year. I remember always loving them. My sister and I would always walk around collecting as much free merchandise as we could carry. It was always a fun day. 

However I have absolutely no interest in cars. To me as long as a car gets me from A to B I am happy. I don’t care how many cylinders it has or how fast it goes or what size engine it is.

This week I feel like I have spent everyday in the car. One place we went to was Goodwood Festival of Speed. Out of all the motor events I have been to I have never been to Goodwood. 

It was very different to the shows I went to as a kid. One thing that I found different was the fact that there was so many really old cars there and they raced them at the event. 

Matt and my brother found all these cars very fascinating. There were cars from so many years, some going all the way back more than 100 years. There were cars that had raced in races like F1, Le Mans, NASCAR and many more. I have to say I found it mildly interesting. 

There were a few cars there that were made or won races in the year I was born. 

The thing that really hit home to me was how well they have been looked after over the years. They were someone’s pride and joy and in many cases these cars had been lovingly restored. 

If I had seen a car from the year I was born I would have thought it would only be fit for the scrap heap, but these were still going strong and still winning races. Their value had gone up considerably over the years but despite this they would use them, race them and they would sometimes crash.  But they were still being used for the exact purpose they were built for. It shows that when you look after something it can go on for a long time. 

I think the same applies to humans. If we don’t look after our bodies we could end up on the scrap heap a lot sooner than you should be. I think that was the place I was at 18 months ago. 

Sometimes I think it is a really hard thing to do but it is a vital thing to do. If you don’t look after yourself you are absolutely no help to anyone else. 

Even though my journey of ‘restoration’ hasn’t been an easy one, with a few crashes alone the way, it has been a rewarding one. I feel I am now able to accomplish the things I was made to do. Which is a total turn around in a year and a half.