Year 2 week 35

27th August – 2nd September 2017

This year seems to be going really quick and the summer is almost over. I have always loved the summer – a time to relax and wind down. 

This summer, eventhough I have relaxed and had time to unwind, I have found it really hard. I just haven’t been able to concentrate on my diet at all. I have managed to do a little exercise but nothing like I was doing before the summer started.

The kids have been off school now for over 8 weeks. It has been long enough for me to pick up some of my old bad habits. I am hoping it is also short enough to get back with my good habits quickly and easily. 

I have to admit that over the summer I have put on a little weight. It’s only half a stone but I have struggled to get it off since. 

Over the last few weeks I have been preparing to get the kids back to school. It is usually a busy and expensive time of year. There is usually lots of school uniform, shoes (4 pairs per child) and stationery to purchase. 

I am very happy to say that next week the kids go back to school, and I go back to normality.

Well I hope I can go back to normality. I have for a few weeks been craving a little bit of routine and normality. I am looking forward to getting back to my normal exercise regime too. 

I am hoping with the kids going back to school that I can get back motivated and I don’t sit and waste another 8 weeks of progress. 

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Year 2 week 30

23rd- 29th July 2017

I have always loved the summer, it’s usually warmer, it’s a time to go on holiday, it’s time to relax and wind down. 

Since I have been going down this weight loss journey, and I am now half way through my second summer, I find that the summer is also the hardest. 

Summertime is when all routine is gone. I am a person who likes routine. Routine means you know what is coming and you can prepare for it.

In the summer it’s always been see where the day takes me, no particular plans. Trying to lose weight with no routine is the hardest. It’s like I can’t concentrate on my goals, I am totally lacking in focus. 

This week I have spent a few days at a conference called Focus. I was hoping, because of the name, it might help me with my focus. 

One thing that was said was “don’t think that God is invisible – his fingerprints are all over your life” 

One thing I have noticed over the past 18 months is how much help God has actually given me. How even through the hard times he has been right there by my side. 

Here I am going through another hard time. Finding it hard to stay focused on my ultimate goal. One thing, though, that I am forgetting is that God is there beside me leaving his fingerprints. I just forgot to look for them. 

Year 2 week 27

2nd – 8th July 2017

This time is a busy time of year for me. At the end of the school year there is always so much to do with sports days and presentations and I am usually packing for holiday too. 

This year is no different except that instead of packing for 6 people this year it’s like 8. It’s because my kids are going to so many different places over the summer. One of my sons has left on a school hockey and cricket tour in Sri Lanka for 2 weeks and he goes from there to India doing some missionary work for a month. Two of my other sons have come with us on holiday but as soon as we get home they go off to Serbia on mission hence so much packing.

With so much to do means that I lose focus on my goal of losing weight. My eating habits are not as bad as they were 18 months ago but I feel that on occasions I do let things slip a little though. 

I still have that problem of looking in the mirror and seeing me the same way I always have. I sometimes struggle to think I have changed at all. These struggles are things that I face all the time and they can be very disheartening. It actually makes me feel a bit of a fraud – like I have been lying about my progress over the past 18 months. Then when I lose a little focus the feeling is worse. 

When I feel like that I just think of where I have come from. 18 months ago I didn’t have the energy to keep going all day. I was over 5 stone heavier and I definitely couldn’t have ever ran a half marathon. 

Sometimes though I get reminders in the little things like the fact that I can go shopping and buy clothes in a much smaller size than I use too, I try clothes on they are more likely to be too big than too tight, that I can get off the sofa in seconds and without pain rather than it taking me over 5 minutes. 

The latest thing that reminds me is the fact after I have a shower and I only need one towel to wrap around me rather than 2!

It is one thing that I have noticed lately. I get slightly overwhelmed every time I wrap a towel around me and I can tie it. I half expect that I still need 2! It also means I can use the second towel to dry my hair. 

These little things help to remind me that I am not a fraud. I have done better than what the mirror translates in my mind and even though I get set backs it helps me to move forward.

Day 307

Wednesday 2nd November 2016

Last night Matt and I hoped on a plane and went to Portugal. We are going for a few days leaving the kids at home. 

My Dad now lives in Portugal and the last time a saw him was May. I have changed a lot since then and my Dad seemed to notice the difference which was encouraging. 

What was weird though was that before I left I had to get out all of my summer clothes. It was strange packing summer clothes when it is cold outside. 

I packed the clothes I liked and put them in my case. However this morning when getting dressed some of the clothes were too big. I put a t shirt on that is now a great big dress. 


A few other items are big too, even my swimming costume. It doesn’t seem that long ago since I was wearing them in the summer. 

Before I left home I was noticing that things were fitting better. So yesterday morning I got back on the scales. I am still heavier than I was before I went to Devon but for some reason it didn’t seem to bother me. 

I don’t know if it’s because I have got out of the habit of weighing myself and now I just don’t care anymore or because my clothes are feeling looser again. 

I hope it’s the latter because, if it is because I don’t care anymore, that could lead me back in the wrong direction and I can’t have that. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st   07lbs.   0.9lbs⬆️.  . 74.1lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.9kg.     0.4⬆️.      34.5kg⬇️total

Day 252

Thursday 8th September 2016

With the kids going back to school, I can get back into some kind of routine. That means seeing some people I haven’t seen since the beginning of summer. 

I felt over the summer I tried hard with very little results. I went on a few bike rides – one that was 23 miles – I climbed Snowdon and I went on many walks, some of them quite challenging. I have done more activities this summer than I have ever done before. 

I have even eaten a lot healthier over the summer. I went away a few times and I still watched what I ate. I was very conscious that I didn’t want to ruin all my hard work up until that point. Putting all this into consideration I felt that I hadn’t lost any weight. 

So why all of a sudden are people shocked by how much weight I have lost? Some people say that they are hardly recognising me. 

I know deep down I am doing well but I just can’t see it. To me I am the same only I have more energy, my clothes are baggy and my health has improved. I just can’t see what everyone else sees. 

Today though I had a shock


One thing I was shocked about was that I decided to look back at what my weight was at the beginning of the summer. I thought I had not lost any weight but it turns out that I have actually lost 5lbs. Ok, so it’s not brilliant but it’s definitely better than nothing. 

I spend my time looking at what I was yesterday but when I actually looked a bit further back it turns out to be a lot better than I thought. 

Another thing that constantly shocks me  is when I go shopping for clothes. I would go for a 16 comfortably but I have been known to buy a 14. Yesterday I had to buy a 12!

Today I went shopping with my sister in law and niece, Kate, and I tried on a coat. I have always found that with coats I need to get bigger because of all the clothes on underneath. I got a 16 thinking I would need to go up a size but no, I had to go down a size. I couldn’t believe it. 

So there’s me thinking that I had made no progress whatsoever over the summer but really I think I achieved a lot!

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 7.4lbs. ⬅️➡️. 67.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

105kg. ⬅️➡️. 31.5kg⬇️total

Day 231

Thursday 18th August 2016

The summer is so much more relaxed than other times of the year. The kids are off school, I don’t have to get up early in the mornings – it’s generally a slower pace. 

The last week I have been very tired and hungry and quite busy considering it’s the summer. I think I am getting a little rundown as well. 

It is very hard to stay focused and motivated when I feel like that. I feel I have done well up until now but I also feel that I really need to be careful because I could quite easily slip.


I find I am getting fed up of preparing my food everyday rather than just grabbing something for quickness. I find that I am getting hungry between my meals and finding it hard waiting for 5 hours until my next meal. 

The only thing that stops me from slipping is the fact that I have been doing this metabolic balance now for 8 months. 8 months of hard work, 8 months of sticking to a plan, 8 months of being good. There is no way I want to jeopardise that. 

I am also in such a routine with my eating that the timing of my eating has become second nature to me now. 

So eventhough I feel it could be really easy for me to slip I’m going to try my best as what I’m doing now is the new normal.  

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 8.4lbs. ⬅️➡️. 66.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

105.4kg. ⬅️➡️.      31.9kg⬇️total

Day 221

Monday 8th August 2016

While the kids are off school I try to take them places that will entertain them and keep them occupied. I find in the summer they can quite easily get bored. 

Today we got an invitation to go for a picnic. We have been on picnics a few times before and the kids have always enjoyed them. I knew the kids would like it having other children to play with so we decided to go. 

We filled the car with bikes, scooters, skateboards and anything that would entertain them. We also made ourselves a picnic.


We made up sandwiches,  took sausage rolls, crisps and cake all things you would usually put in a picnic basket. 

This was the first time I have had a picnic since I have changed to eating healthier. Packing up a picnic with food I could eat was not really that difficult. I managed to make myself a ham salad and I took an apple. It didn’t bother me that the kids were eating sandwiches and cake because I really enjoyed my salad.

What I did like about it is the fact I can still go out and join other people, chat have a laugh and not feel like I am missing out or being deprived. 

I find most things I do socially all revolves around food. I may have changed my diet, but it’s nice to know that socially some things remain the same.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 7.4lbs.       ⬅️➡️.    . 67.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

105kg.          ⬅️➡️.        31.5kg⬇️total

Day 176

Friday 24th June 2016

It is the start of British summer time. I like the summer, all the flowers are in bloom. The weather is generally better and warmer, all the crops are growing in the fields and the barbecues are all out. Everything is generally better when summer comes. 


However, for me eventhough I love all those things, there is one thing that has always made summertime really miserable.

I get really bad hayfever. I have had it for years, it is roasting outside but I have to keep all the windows closed so the pollen doesn’t get in to aggravate me, I usually get so tired  that I can’t do much. 

One thing I have noticed this year is that my hayfever has been a lot better. I have however had a few bad moments of all the normal symptoms but nothing as bad as I have had in previous years. 

I would normally take a tablet, use eye drops and  beconase nasal spray everyday. This year though I have used them but not as often. 

My only explanation is the healthy eating. I am finding since I have been getting my metabolic balance back in balance, a whole load of health conditions and ailments have improved. Which is a big bonus. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 13lbs.     ⬅️➡️.    . 62 lbs⬇️total

Start weight 135.6 kg

107.5kg.         ⬅️➡️.      29.3kg⬇️total