Day 294

Thursday 20th October 2016

I have been getting really frustrated lately because the scales haven’t moved for weeks. I have been aware that it could be related to my thyroids because if your thyroids are not right it can fluctuate your weight. It hasn’t however stopped me being frustrated. 

I find when the weight doesn’t move it really tests my motivation. Part of me wants to give up because the hard work isn’t worth it. The other part says keep going because I have done so well so far. 

It’s like my conscience is whispering contradictory things in my ears. 

One is saying eat the cake it won’t hurt, the other is saying have an apple instead. 

Your mind is having a terrible battle when things aren’t going the way you want it to. In the past when I got to this point in a diet I have quit because it gets just far too hard. I have always listened to the wrong voice in my head. 

This time though I have a secret weapon – it’s called Jenny. I said to myself that I wasn’t going to let it bother me until after I saw her. 

Today I saw Jenny but before I even told her my frustrations she said that it looked like I had lost weight and that it was the biggest transformation she has seen in me for a long time.  I have to admit I do feel thinner but I didn’t know I was until she said. I got measured too and I have lost an inch all round. 

I also got on the scales and to my surprise I had lost 4lbs in 2 weeks. I was shocked because my scales at home haven’t moved. She also said not to worry about the scales because really that doesn’t matter because you can still improve you shape without even losing weight. 

If I had been weighed in anywhere else I wouldn’t have left that happy and probably have ended up quitting. 

So today has spurred me on to keep going. I am going to listen to the right voice in my head and carry on. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

15st 13.8lbs. ⬅️➡️. 75.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.6kg. ⬅️➡️. 34.9kg⬇️total