Day 366

Saturday 31st December 2016

New Years Eve

I DID IT !!!!

I wrote my diary everyday for a year. I never really thought that this day would ever come at times. And what a year it has been!

I have had so many emotional ups and downs. I have put in some hard work and I feel like I have achieved so much this year.

At the start of the year when I started to write this blog my post for day one said:

“It’s New Year’s Day and with true New Years tradition I decided to make a New Years resolution. I AM going to lose weight this year.

So today is day 1 and I did absolutely nothing towards dieting.

Oh well, there is always tomorrow.”

In my experience when you are dieting,  tomorrow never comes.  Well it looks like on this occasion it did and kept coming for 365 days after.

I have always been a person to set New Years resolutions and I have always tried my best to stick to them as well. To lose weight is always near the top of the list and it’s one resolution that always got broken.

This year I did set a few resolutions and I can honestly say that I did stick to them too.

Some of the resolutions for this year did get added throughout the year but they were still goals I was aiming to achieve during the year.

One was to lose 100lbs before the end of the year. Unless I miraculously lose 25lbs before midnight I failed this task. I have always hated failing things especially when it comes to personal goals.

However, I don’t really look at it as a failure. I just look at all the things I have achieved and the reason I didn’t get to 100lbs wasn’t for the lack of trying!

Some of those goals I have achieved only last week, like running 5 miles before the end of the year. And right now I am achieving another goal by posting my final daily blog of the year and drawing yet another picture.  The joy I get when I have achieved one of my goals far out weighs the fact that I didn’t lose 100lbs.

This journey this year has taught me so much:

1) A lot can happen in a year and it’s up to you to make it change for the better.

2) Being honest with yourself and how you really feel is the first step to making a change.

3) Listening to the things that are going on around you and getting something positive from it.

4) Confessing how you feel about situations especially about how you feel about yourself. I have found confession is the cure.

5) Make a plan and stick to it no matter how hard it gets. When you can push on through the hard times is when you get a greater reward.

6) Don’t be afraid to ask for help. It’s not a sign of weakness but a sign of strength.

7) You need support so get some people around you can trust.

8) Don’t rely on the scales, especially when the weight isn’t coming off. It will come off eventually.

So for me a lot really has happened in a year. It doesn’t mean though that this journey is over. It just means that I have written one book and now I am about to start the next volume

My health is now my number one priority and this will be the journey that will continue from now on. So to say that this is the end is untrue because I am sure that a lot of those issues I have faced this year will try to come back out again. But I think I am now a bit more aware of how to deal with them.

The difference a year makes:

20th Jan 16 / 31st Dec 16
11th Feb 16 / 31st Dec 16

Hopefully next year I can carry on this weight loss journey with the same amount of success and achievement. I also have plenty of new goals which I want to pursue in the new year.  These goals I would never have been able to think about if I hadn’t lost the weight I have this year.

If I could put this year into one word that word would be ‘overcoming’.  That is what I think I have done this year – I’ve overcome so much.

I have definitely enjoyed you being on this journey with me everyday. I have found it a challenge to keep up this pace of daily posts. It doesn’t mean I am gone for good. I will be back from time to time to give you updates and let you know how my New Years resolutions for 2017 are going.

Have a really great new year and I hope your 2017 is even more rewarding than my 2016 has been.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st lbs. ⬅️➡️. 75lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.6kg. ⬅️➡️. . 34.8kg⬇️total


Day 356

Wednesday 21st December 2016

Today I have been reminded a few times about last years Dickens party. I kept getting memories pop up on facebook and I had a friend send me some photos of me at the party last year. 

I have no idea how she got the photos because I would never pose for a photo but it looks like I did on this occasion. I must have been having a good day. 

She sent it to me because she was amazed by my transformation. I have to say the transformation is amazing. The only thing I could think of that changes that much is a caterpillar when it turns into a butterfly. 

I know I have lost a lot of weight this year and I know I have gone down about 5-6 dress sizes. But in my head I don’t look much different. There is something that goes on in the translation in my head – it takes a lot longer to compute.

Seeing these pictures and the difference from last year has made me see the transformation a lot clearer. 

Last year 2015 / This year 2016

When the photo on the right was taken a few days ago I wasn’t as keen on it as some people because I thought I still looked large, but in comparison with the photo from last year I can see the dramatic change. 

It has made me realise how far I have actually come this year. I think when you see yourself everyday and look in the mirror there seems like there isn’t really a very dramatic change. It’s only when you see photos like that when you notice. 

Day 304

Sunday 30th October 2016

This morning we had an extra hour in bed because it’s that time of year again when the clocks go back. 

I have always loved it when you get an extra hour of the day.

All I wanted to do was use it wisely and catch up on some sleep. But no, I woke up early instead because by the time the morning came around I had forgotten and I didn’t change the clock by my bed. 

I then woke Matt up saying he was going to be late – his response was it’s only ten past six in the morning! It then dawned on me about the extra hour. I was then really annoyed with myself because I totally wasted that extra hour. Matt wasn’t too happy either.

I may have wasted that hour but one thing I am really glad about is the fact I haven’t wasted the year. 

In previous years if I think back to any accomplishments I have done in that year I wouldn’t have said I had achieved very much. 

I find that time goes by so quickly that you could blink and miss it half the time. That is how I have been in previous years. I do have some memorable moments but nothing I could say that I really accomplished anything in. 

This year, though, I am happy I haven’t wasted my time. I am doing things that I will remember forever, I have done a whole lifestyle change and learnt so much along the way. I have overcome so many emotional battles that I have lived with for years and I have lost weight in the process. 

So I may have wasted that hour but at least I am not wasting my year!

No weigh in

Day 209

Wednesday 27th July 2016

I have found lately that I have done a little bit of looking back over the past year. This time last summer I was on holiday just like I am now. I was eating whatever I wanted like pizzas, burgers, chips, pastries, ice creams.  I even ate between my meals. However I was piling on the weight fast. I had no energy to do anything and my health was not very good. 

This holiday everything is totally the opposite. I am eating healthier, I have so much more energy ( I find myself saying that I would rather walk than catch a bus) and my health has improved. 

One thing I have noticed this holiday is that my skin has improved. I was diagnosed with being photosensitive which mean my skin reacts in the sun. I have had it for years and my skin gets very itchy to a point that I can’t stand it any longer. I have been told by the doctors that there is nothing that can be done, I just need to stay out of the sun. This condition has now gone, I haven’t been itchy once. 

It’s amazing the change that you can do in less than a year. 

It’s like the change a tiny plant makes in a year. It grows and I feel I have grown in self confidence this year. It changes shape and size I have definitely done that. And it eventually blossoms bringing its true self out into the light.  I am getting there on that one as I still have a long way to go. So I would say that I am the bud gradually coming out 

change in my face in one year

a family wedding last year and today

These pictures were taken a year apart. 

I know it looks like I still have a lot of weight to lose but I feel, by me looking back, it helps me to move forward. Especially as I have found it particularly hard this holiday.

No weigh in