Day 184

Saturday 2nd July 2016

Over the last few days I have spent a lot of time outside. Jake my youngest son had his sports day at school yesterday. I have always hated sports day because I end up being outside to watch him for a whole afternoon. Usually I would spend most of the afternoon sneezing with hayfever but this time the hayfever didn’t affect me at all. 

Today Jake had a cross country run in the morning which I watched. I think all that fresh air over the last few days has made me tired. 

I never have a nap in the middle of the day. I would relax in front of the TV but never fall asleep half way through. This is because of my sleep apnea.

Sleep apnea prevents me going to sleep on my own, I can only go to sleep wearing my CPAP machine (it helps me breathe). I have tried a few times recently to go to sleep without it but when I relax I seem to end up gasping for breath. 

Today though is the first time in many years that I actually had a nap. 

It’s the first time I have managed to relax enough to fall asleep on my own. To me this is a real achievement something I have been aiming for all year. 

Also over the last few days I have had a most incredible hunger even straight after eating. I haven’t had hunger like that in a while. I did however manage to stick to the rules. That might explain the weight loss this morning I finally got under that pound that has been stubborn.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 12.6lbs.      0.4lbs⬇️.   62.4lbs⬇️total

Start weight 135.6 kg

107.3kg.        0.2kg⬇️.       29.5kg⬇️total


Day 122

Sunday 1st May 2016

I have had a bit of a cold lately. I think that was the reason I woke up so early yesterday. This morning though it was even earlier.

I have had sleep apnoea for 12 years. It’s basically a sleep disorder. When I sleep I can stop breathing in the night which would then partially wake me up and then I would carry on sleeping as normal. This would repeat many times throughout the night. It would also prevent me from ever going into a deep sleep. It would leave me feeling really tired for the rest of the day. 

Often the cause is from being overweight and without treatment it can be quite hazardous to your health. It can bring on an early heart attack.  The treatment is a machine you wear at night that helps you breathe.

It’s a mask that blows air in through your nose constantly throughout the night.

I have been married for nearly 20 years and for 12 of them I have had to wear this mask. It also makes me sound like Darth Vader. I am amazed I am still married.

I have never taken off the mask in 12 years. I rely on it to have a good night sleep. Last night however because of my cold I couldn’t sleep. I woke at 4.30am and there was not a chance I was going back off. I decided that I might as well disguard it and try and sleep without it. It worked and I slept for the rest of the night.

I am pretty sure that I will put it back on again tonight. But it is the first step to getting rid of it completely.

17st.  10.9lbs.    ⬅️➡️.        50.1lbs⬇️total

112.9kg.              ⬅️➡️.        23.6kg⬇️total