Year 2 week 1

1st- 7th January 2017

New Year’s Eve was great.  I felt I ended the year on such a high with so much achieved and overcome in that year. 

When January 1st came around the feeling was so different. I was looking at my year ahead with dread that I had to do it all again. Knowing the struggles I had last year all I could see was greater struggles this year that I have to face and get over. 

Last year I didn’t know the struggles I was going to face but I tackled them head on as they came about. This year, though, I can see a little more about the struggles I have ahead of me and I have to say I am not looking forward to the challenges I need to face. 

On the 2nd I woke up with a different attitude again. All I knew was that I need to seize the day. Not worry about tomorrow, not regret what I should have done yesterday but just do it NOW.


I have tried to abide by that concept all week. I have started my walking up again. But I hadn’t managed to do any running yet this year. I am wanting to go running outside because all I had done up until now was run on the treadmill. 

Last time I managed to run 5 miles I am now aiming for 6 but I find that there is one thing that is stopping me from running the 6 miles and that is the 6 inches between my ears. 

Those 6 inches have a lot to answer for and very often it stops me from achieving my goals. 

I have always found it so much easier to talk myself out of doing something than putting in the hard work and actually going for it. 

However today Matt has seen my lack of motivation and said we are going out for a run around the block rather than a walk. I think it was just what I needed because I don’t think I would have done it for myself. 

I said ok without even an argument. I think it was because I knew he was right. But I do think that he totally over estimated my ability. 

We went out and at first I struggled a little not with the physical side but with my breathing. We came to the first hill and I have to admit that I walked most of it. 

I knew that running on the road would be a lot more challenging than running on the treadmill.  I was expecting it to be hard but I did however run more than I did walk which was surprising. 

The second half of the run seemed to be easier I even managed to tackle the steep hill. I almost collapsed when I got to the top though.  

The run was 5k I must have ran about 3.5 of it. So for my first time out I finished quite happy with myself. 

I still think that Matt over estimated my ability but I really under estimated it too. The fact that Matt believed I could do more and encouraged me all the way made it easier in some way and I think that’s why I did better than I thought I would do. It just goes to show how much easier it is to run on a treadmill when compared to outside on the road with hills!

One thing I have had this week is extra time. It was taking me about 2 – 3 hours a day just to draw a picture and do my blog. Now I am a bit freer I am wanting to use my extra time wisely. 

However I find I have been totally wasting it. I am though having a little time to practice with my Christmas present. I got a stylus which is a pen that allows me to draw on my iPad (hence the different style of drawing today). 

But I do want to work hard and do something more worthwhile with the extra time I have. 

Day 262

Sunday 18th September 2016

When I first started at the beginning of the year my goal was to lose 70lbs (5 stone) by October. It seemed impossible – I thought I wasn’t going to do it. It just seemed so far for me to see that far ahead.

At first the weight came off really quickly. I lost the first 4 stone in 4 and a half months. It has taken 4 months for the last stone. It has been a struggle at every step. But today I did it – I actually got to the 70lbs down mark.

In recent weeks I have been so close but I have often thought that I was never going to get there. I couldn’t believe it when I got on the scales this morning  and I had reached my goal. 

I actually got quite emotional and the tears were filling my eyes. I found myself crying at random times – I just couldn’t contain my emotions. 

This had been something I had worked all year for and today I actually succeeded. I think when you try so hard for something and eventually you get it I think I couldn’t help but be emotional. 

I have been taking comparison photos at every stone I lose. It has been 4 months since the last one. 

20th January / 18th September

It was very hard taking the first photo. Now though I am glad I did because it shows me where I have come from and the improvements I have made. 

Eventhough my overall goal was to lose 70lbs by October it quickly changed to 100lbs by the end of the year. So I still have a long way to go and a lot more hard work ahead. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 5lbs.        0.5lbs⬇️.     70lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

103.9kg.         0.2kg⬇️.     32.6kg⬇️total

Day 197

Friday 15th July 2016

Today we went on a day trip to Annecy. It’s one of my favourite places in France. It has a lake, the mountains, lots of shops and nice restaurants, there are lots of activities for the kids it is also very quaint.

We have been to Annecy many times before and we love it. In the past the only draw back is the amount of walking we do. We usually park a little way from the town and then walk in. Today the walking didn’t bother me at all. 

We looked round the shops, had lunch and then we walked to the lake side so the kids could kick at football around. This is the point of the day I relax. Not today though I spent my time kicking a football around too. 


Excuse the pun but this was one of my goals and today I achieved it. We had so much fun in the process . We spent most of the time laughing mainly at me because I am rubbish at football. 


It has only taken me 6 short months to make these minor changes but to me it had been so worth it.

No weigh in

Day 104

Wednesday 13th April 2016

I went to see Jenny the nutritionist today.  It was the first visit after the holiday. Always when I go there is a weigh in and today was no different except that I can really see how much weight I lost on holiday. It said that I lost 7lbs which I am really happy about.

We also talked about goals  

 
Back in January when I saw Jenny for the first time, she asked me about my goals and what I wanted to achieve. I remember saying that I would love to have the energy to spend more time with the kids, not to feel so tired all the time. I wanted to improve my health and I wanted to lose 70lbs for my Dads 70th birthday in October. These were my long term goals all of which I have achieved except the 70lbs. However that goal has now changed and I have increased it to 100lbs.  I have also added climbing Mount Snowden by the end of the year.

The long term goals seem so overwhelming and out of reach sometimes that I have to set myself a lot of short term goals – the next one being to get under 18st (and under every stone as I come to it) then to lose 50lbs (or every 10lbs) then to lose 4 stone (or every stone that follows). These are nicely spaced so I can usually accomplish at least one of these every week. It is these short term goals that keep me motivated and without them the long term goals seem too far away. 

18st 1.1lbs.    1.1lbs⬇️.     45.9lbs⬇️total

114.8kg.         0.5kg⬇️.      21.7kg⬇️total