Day 276

Sunday 2nd October 2016

Since finishing my detox I have been slightly annoyed with the fact that the scales are gradually going back up again. 

The first time I did the detox I was worried that if I started adding oil and butter I would put weight on. I didn’t though and it continued to go down. This time though I wasn’t worried. I thought that the detox would kick start my metabolism and the weight would just continue to drop off. How wrong was I. 

There is a saying that a chain is only as strong as its weakest link. 

I think at the moment my weakest link is complacency. I know I have done well with losing weight this year and I know that my desperation to lose weight is considerably less than at the start of the year. 

I am also getting so many compliments all the time, saying that I am doing well or I am looking good. Some people have even said that I look like a totally different person. I hope, however, that all these things are not making me too complacent 

Since the detox though I have been careful. I am not eating as much as I did before I started the detox. I could before eat oats, rye bread and sweet potatoes.  I would eat these almost daily.  They are now back in my diet but I have cut them down by at least half. 

On the detox I couldn’t have them so I thought afterwards it would be a good opportunity to reduce my daily intake of them. So there is no real reason why the weight is going back up. I will just have to hope it will go back down eventually 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

15st 13.8lbs.    0.3lbd⬆️.   75.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.6kg.     0.2kg⬆️.    34.9kg⬇️total


Day 273

Thursday 29th September 2016

Yesterday was the last day of my detox. I really didn’t think I would last the whole 10 days, but I did. I am very happy that I did because a detox is never easy. It was however so much easier than last time. 

So because I finished yesterday means that today I can go back to normal. Well, my new normal, not the normal from last year. Which means I am still not eating bread, potatoes, rice or pasta. 

Over the last 10 days I have been looking forward to the day I could start using oil and butter again.  I have also been looking forward to my oats granola cereal and oat cakes. 

This morning I thought I would have my granola for breakfast after the kids had gone to school so I could sit and savour every mouthful. I got it ready and sat on a really comfy seat so I could get the most out of the moment. 

When I took my first bite it didn’t do what I had thought it would. I enjoyed it but I thought I was going to feel immense bliss.

Your mind can really play tricks on you. I had worked this up to be something so much more than it actually was. I have to say I was a little disappointed it was such an anticlimax. 

I had spent 10 days building it up to be something that just ended up blowing back up in my face – like an overinflated balloon. 

I did feel quite deflated afterwards so I thought I would wait for lunch and enjoy that instead but that did the same as breakfast. 

I find a lot of things are like that. We get excited about things that really aren’t important and when it blows up in our face we can be really disappointed. I find very often we put all our hopes on the little things and get offended and upset when it doesn’t go our way.

So I think I am going to try and not get my hopes up anymore on the little things and start valuing the big things more because it is that that counts after all. 

It has also made me realise that I don’t really need these treats everyday anymore and to not rely on them so much. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

15st 13.1lbs.    0.2lbs⬇️.    75.9lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.2kg.     0.1kg⬇️.    35.3kg⬇️total

Day 270

Monday 26th September 2016

I have been on this detox now for 8 days. It has gone really well so far – I can’t believe that I have lost so much weight on it. 

A detox is meant to really clean out your system.  I feel like my body is a bit like a sponge. 

A sponge absorbs all the liquid it comes in contact with and to get rid of it you have to give it a good squeeze. The detox is the squeezing and it’s hard work. 

This detox is different to the first time as it’s cleaning out my system in a deeper way, a lot deeper. 

I find that I am not only cleaning out my system I am also cleaning out my emotions, my character, my general demeanour too.

Yesterday it was said while I was at church that our future starts with a small step but it means that we need to dig in order for it to have the right foundations. We can’t let anyone else do it – we need to do it ourselves. To dig can be really hard work but if we do it gives us the foundations for our future. 

I find this year that is what I have been doing. I have been making lots of small steps that is leading to bigger steps but it hasn’t come without me digging deep. 

Also I feel like a sponge absorbing all the things around me and I find that what comes out after the squeeze is affecting all those around me.

I didn’t plan it but if what I am doing helps others too then it makes my journey totally worthwhile. And that’s a great big bonus!

Start weight 21st 5lbs

15st 13.5lbs.     ⬅️➡️.    . 75.5lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.4kg.           ⬅️➡️.     35.1kg⬇️total

Day 268

Saturday 24th September 2016

I have been on the detox for 6 days now and it is going ok. However I have been feeling really hungry.

The only things I eat on this detox is protein (eggs, meat, fish, nuts or seeds) only one per meal, vegetables and fruit. It’s a little less than what I normally eat. It turns out to be only about 1000 calories a day. 

January was the last time I ate so little and I was out of action for a long time. I also had no energy for a few weeks after the detox. 

What I am amazed about this time is that my calorie intake is so low but I still have plenty of energy – it’s like someone has pressed the power button and left it on. 

Yesterday I had my training. Training while on a detox is not usually advisable because you don’t have enough energy. Yesterday though I coped really well and he even worked me harder than normal. 

The longer I am on the detox the hungrier I am getting but I am losing a pound a day so a little hunger is worth it. I just hope I can continue for 4 more days. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16stlbs.        1lbs⬇️. 75lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.6kg.      0.5kgs⬇️. 34.9kg⬇️total

Day 267

Friday 23rd September 2016

If you had asked me the question last year “are you addicted to anything?” I probably would have said “nothing” but secretly thought chocolate. 

I have always had a weakness for chocolate – Cadburys especially. If I think about it now I had a weakness for biscuits, cakes and sweets too. 

If I wanted it I ate it without thinking of the consequences, which was bad health and piling on the weight. 

I always thought that addictions were drugs and alcohol related but you can get addicted to lots of things. Even exercise (that’s never gonna happen with me) or  hobbies or, for me, certain food. 

In January when I was last on the detox I had to practically lock away the chocolate, biscuits, cakes and sweets – all things I was addicted too. 

All I knew was that if I saw any of them I would have eaten them. The detox last time really helped me get over that addiction. 

I came into this detox without the addiction to all the food that are bad for you, but over the last few months I have found that I was starting to rely on oats. They were on my food list so I was allowed them but it came to a point that I was having to have some after every meal. 

Today I have been really hungry and all I have wanted to do was pinch some oat cakes out of the cupboard. When I started this detox I felt that I didn’t have as much motivation to do it as I did last time. I think it’s because I am so much lighter now and my desperation isn’t as great as it was. 

I am amazed that I have got this far. Seeing the weight go down every day has definitely helped me to stay motivated.  Only 5 more days left and then I can have my oats back. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 1lbs.        1lbs⬇️.        74lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

102.1kg.          0.4kgs⬇️.     34.4kg⬇️total

Day 266

Thursday 22nd September 2016

Day 4 of detox was the worst day last time. It was the day I got the shakes really bad, my emotions were all over the place and I couldn’t concentrate at all. I think I spent most of the day in bed because I couldn’t cope. 

At the time I was going through cold turkey on sugar and it was the final stages of the sugar leaving my system which is why it was the worst day. 

I was also ready to quit on day 4 last time. I had hit a brick wall and I couldn’t see a way through it. If I hadn’t have rang Jenny I think I would have quit.

Today is day 4 of detox again. Things are so different – quite frankly I have hardly noticed. No shakes, no erratic emotions my cold is even getting better.

There was a time a few weeks ago that I didn’t think my weight was ever going to move. Lately though, even before the detox, I have been losing weight constantly. This hasn’t happened for so long. I feel like I have had a real breakthrough.

5lbs in one week is some going considering I have been going for so long now. That is the type of weight loss you get in the beginning of a diet not 9 months in.  I just hope it continues 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 2lbs.       0.4lbs⬇️. .      73lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

102.5kg.         0.2kgs⬇️.        34kg⬇️total

Day 265

Wednesday 21st September 2016

Matt has had a cold for a few weeks. He has been complaining about it for a while. I have given him absolutely no sympathy at all. 

He has also been very sharing and now given it to me too. I have been doing really well up until now – this is the first time I have got anything. It’s probably because I didn’t give Matt enough sympathy!

So when I have a cold I would always dose myself up with cough syrup,Strepsils, cough sweets, lemsips anything to make me feel better.

The only thing with that is they all contain lots of sugar. With all the healthy eating I have been doing this year, cold and flu medication is something I shouldn’t be having. 

I am also doing well on my detox, so having medication to help my cold will totally ruin it.  So I am not taking anything for the cold.  I am suffering in silence – well suffering as I don’t think that the family would say I am being that silent. 

I started my healthy eating back in January  and this is the first time I have got sick. Earlier on in the year a lot of people got colds but not me. I seemed to avoid it. 

Why this year have I mostly managed to avoid it but not at all in previous years?  My only explanation is it has to be the food. One thing I have learnt this year is that sugar has a lot to answer for and, according to Jenny, it can also contribute to getting colds.  

So it also doesn’t make sense that the remedies for a cold are full of sugar. How can the thing that cause it to happen be the remedy too?

I think the reason that I caught a cold this time is because I am on a detox. They can make you a little rundown which means I am more susceptible. 

The detox last time was a complete blood sugar meltdown but this time it is working deeper in my liver function and re-presenting toxins from my fat cells back into my system. 

So really I blame this cold on what I ate last year rather the good things I am doing this year.

As for the detox, today has been a really good day – I haven’t really felt hungry and having protein back is a big bonus. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 2.4lbs.       1.6lb⬇️.   . 72.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

102.7kg.          0.7kgs⬇️.        33.8kg⬇️total

Day 264

Tuesday 20th September 2016

Day 2 of detox – the last time I did this detox was January and on day 2 I had a major meltdown. I was 5 stone heavier and I didn’t come into it with a very healthy diet at the time. 

By the end of day 2 I was shaking really bad, I think I must have cried for the whole day and by the time the evening came I was ready to quit. 

This time things have improved greatly. Firstly I haven’t cried at all, I have had the energy to sort out the house, which is unheard of for me, and I didn’t get shaky either. I have coped a lot better than last time.

However it still hasn’t been easy. I have been really hungry, I have felt very light headed from time to time and I have a stinking cold which hasn’t helped at all. 

I have heard the saying ‘starve a fever feed a cold.’ I am doing completely the opposite and my emotions have been very up and down. By lunch time I had conked out completely 

Last time I had to shut the door on everyone and go to bed. Not so much this time, however, a lot of resting on the sofa has been necessary. 

The hard work is seeming to be worth it though as I lost a pound yesterday which is one step closer to my goal. 

Tomorrow I will be back on phase 2 which is similar to what I have been eating only I can’t use butter or oil. So that will be so much easier than the last few days. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 4lbs.    1lb⬇️.      71lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

103.4kg.     0.5kgs⬇️.   33.1kg⬇️total

Day 263

Monday 19th September 2016. 

Today is a new day and the fact that I got to my initial goal of 70lbs yesterday was perfect timing. 

I feel now that I can start again. My next big goal now is to lose 30lbs by new year.  So now is the time when I need to move onto the next chapter. 

I have been planning for a while to do another detox. I have always had it in my diary to start it today. That’s why it’s perfect timing. 

So I am back on day 1 all I can remember from the detox last time was that it was really hard, I was extremely hungry and I had a few major meltdowns. 

I am hoping I cope a lot better than last time. On phase 1 I have 3 meals a day and they can consist of either fruit for each meal, vegetables for each meal or potatoes for each meal. 

Last time I had fruit the first day and potatoes the 2nd. The potato day was the worst day ever – I don’t think I am going to eat potato wedges ever again. The fruit day wasn’t so bad though. 

So today I ate only fruit. I had apples for breakfast, mangos for lunch and melon for dinner. I have been alright – there were times when I got hunger pains and the feeling of being lightheaded.

All in all I have coped quite well. That was until it came to picking the kids up from school. I got the first 2 ok then one son was so late arriving which made me late for the next one. When I went to get him, he wasn’t there at all. Which sent me on a wild goose chase looking for him. I finally heard that he was getting a lift home sometime later. I really wasn’t best pleased. 

Today wasn’t the best day for the kids to try my patience. When you are hungry it doesn’t take much to send you off on one.  

I however have got through the day without giving into temptation. I think a lot of relaxation is required though for the rest of the day.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 5lbs.      ⬅️➡️.   . 70lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

103.9kg.        ⬅️➡️.      32.6kg⬇️total

Day 132

Wednesday 11th May 2016

Wednesday’s are my favourite day of the week because it is the day I get to see Jenny and I learn a few things about health and nutrition. 

She has sorted out my general health by educating me on what food to eat. Now I find that I am telling her about any slight little ailment I might have because she usually knows what has caused it and how to get rid of it. 

I have found for the past few weeks that I have had very itchy skin. I thought at first that was because my skin has gone dry after getting a tan on holiday, but it would itch on my stomach and that has never seen the sun in its life.  

Jenny said that when I first started with her on the detox, after 4 days, I went through cold turkey ( it was the worst thing I have ever done). She said that my body is doing the same and it has taken all this time to come to the surface; its like I’m shedding skin.

When snakes shed their skin they reemerge brighter, revitalised and refreshed. 

I so hope that happens to me. 

17st. 8.7lbs.     0.2lbs⬆️.     52.3lbs⬇️total

111.9kg.             0.1kg⬆️.      24.7kg⬇️total