Day 288

Friday 14th October 2016

Once I got to my first goal of 70lbs I found that I had to set new goals and have something new to aim for. 

One of those new goals is that I would like to start wearing clothes that are more fitted. proper tailored outfits. 

I have had in the back of my wardrobe a coat that I have never worn. I bought it about 8 years ago when I was thinner. The reason I never wore it was because it was tight when I bought it and I thought that I would lose enough weight to fit it.

I didn’t think it would take me 8 years to do it though but it now fits. It was a really good feeling because it means that I am now thinner now than I have been in over at least 10 years.

The coat is a proper tailored double breasted jacket. It’s one of those coats that has a bit more style to it, I would never have suited anything like that before. It makes me feel good when I wear it. 

It’s also good because it’s perfect for the colder weather we will be getting soon and it means I don’t have to buy a new coat anymore.

Even though I have got into this coat, it doesn’t mean that I have quite achieved my goal. Wearing a coat is one thing where as buying clothes that are more fitted might take a little more time. However it has made me think that it is achievable. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

15st 13.8lbs. ⬅️➡️. 75.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.6kg. ⬅️➡️. 34.9kg⬇️total


Day 287

Thursday 13th October 2016

I have been going through my wardrobe again throwing a load more clothes out. I am starting to throw away clothes that I have bought this year. 

I like the fact I am doing that even though I haven’t had much wear out of them. It’s a good job I have been buying cheap!

I have been throwing away a lot of jeans lately. When I was larger I didn’t really wear jeans because they weren’t as giving as yoga trousers. I also found them uncomfortable and that they got tight really quickly – probably because I was piling on the weight then. 

I would come to a point where I couldn’t even do them up. I hate the fact that jeans always give you a muffin top and I hate that look. 

The jeans I have found in my cupboard I must have wore in the 90s when flairs and boot legs were briefly back in fashion. Now when I put them on I just look ridiculous. 

These days it’s skinny jeans that are all the rage. So I went out and bought a pair. I am still aware that if I go too tight I will still end up with the muffin top. So I went a size bigger just to make sure. 

I hate trying things on in the shop so I bought them and tried them on at home. They fitted – however they are the loosest skinny jeans I have seen but they are comfortable and at least it now puts me in the right decade.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

15st 13.8lbs. ⬅️➡️. 75.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.6kg. ⬅️➡️. 34.9kg⬇️total

Day 254

Saturday 10th September 2016

Why is it when losing weight does some areas come off really quickly and others take there time?

I don’t know why you just can’t lose weight at the same rate everywhere. My legs now are looking quite thin and so are the lower arms, but my upper arms and my stomach seem to be taking an awful lot longer. 

I am changing shape, but I find it is changing all out of proportion. I think if Picasso was still alive I would have made a good model for one of his paintings. 

Even though I am losing weight and ending up a funny shape, it has still been worth it. I am still looking better, feeling better, and feeling more confident. 

It does mean though that certain clothes look funny. If I wear jeans now they either fit on the legs and too tight around the waist, or fit on the waist and too baggy on the legs. Tops are the same, I have to buy bigger because of my arms. 

I sometimes think that my stomach and arms won’t get much smaller but I think carrying on with my healthy eating it will have to come off sooner or later. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 7.4lbs.      ⬅️➡️.    67.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

105kg.          ⬅️➡️.      31.5kg⬇️total

Day 226

Saturday 13th August 2016

I have always been a person who loves wearing black. The entire contents of my wardrobe is either black or dark. 

I think the reason I wear a lot of black is because I feel it makes you look thinner. If I wear something light or bright I feel it shows off all my lumps and bumps and I then feel very self conscious. 

I have always thought it a good camouflage to hide behind as I have never really liked being noticed. 

One thing I have noticed lately is that I am wearing a lot more colours. I opened up my wardrobe and I could see all these bright colours decorating the inside of my wardrobe. 

I love sewing and my favourite thing to make is quilts. I must have made about 30 altogether  

a few of my quilts

When I make them I use lots of colours, I love mixing different colours together and seeing how they turn out. I have a cupboard full of material of many different colours – that is one cupboard I have always loved looking in. 

I think the reason I make things with bright colours is because I don’t wear them. It has always cheered me up because it definitely didn’t happen when I would look in my wardrobe – until now!

Wearing brighter colours is something I feel I can do now because I am thinner. It has taken out some of the dullness in my life. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 7.8lbs.    0.6lbs⬆️    67.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

105.1kg.         0.3kg⬆️.    31.1kg⬇️total

Day 218

Friday 5th August 2016

I said a few months back that I was finding it weird going in regular shops to buy clothes and how I still found myself going in the plus size shops instead.

Now though I realise that I haven’t been shopping in a plus size shop for a long time. I think that transition has happened naturally. 

I find now that I go in regular shops with regular sizes but I find I don’t know what size to choose I know that I don’t pick anything larger than a 16 or lower than a 14 but I can’t look and say that will fit and buy it. My mum shops that way and they always fit. I have to say I used to do that too. I find now that I physically have to go into the changing room and try it on. 

While in there I always seem to worry that it’s going to be to tight and I end up splitting a seam or something. 

In the past I have tried on clothes that are too tight and I end up getting stuck in a funny position and someone having to help me out of it. Fortunately every time it has happened my mum has been there and come to my rescue!

I have to admit that I have also ripped a seam before or I think I have as while taking off the garment I heard that dreaded noise as if I had ripped something but I’m usually too scared to look and check. I just hang it back on the hanger and leave the shop. You probably  think I am such a terrible person now!

While trying on clothes today I half expected it to happen again but no. I ended up buying a smaller size.

Trying on clothes has never really been an enjoyable experience for me. I have always bought clothes that fit but don’t have too much style or a nice shape to them. 

I find now that I can buy clothes that are a bit more stylish and have a nicer shape. Clothes that can actually go in a little at the waist. These new styles and shapes are making me enjoy the experience a lot more. However it will mean that Matt will start worrying more over our bank balance too. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 7lbs      1.2lbs⬇️.      68lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

104.8kg.     0.5kg⬇️.        32.2kg⬇️total

Day 205

Saturday 23rd July 2016

When you lose weight I find that clothes seem to drop lower and hang longer. Tops I find end up being dresses. I like the fact they are longer but the neck line also gets lower. Which can cause a stir at times. 

I did learn really quick though when, a few weeks back, I flashed my bra at someone accidentally.  Fortunately his wife was there and they found it funny rather than her telling me off. I did leave slightly embarrassed though.

On holiday I tend to wear a lot of strappy tops. I bought a load for my last holiday in March so I didn’t want to buy new ones. 

They hang really long but they also drop too low at the front.  But I have come up with a solution.

I find when I tie a knot in each strap it works really well it lifts it enough at the front and It has eliminated any more embarrassing moments

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 11.8lbs.    0.4lbs⬆️     63.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

107kg.     0.2kg⬆️.     29.5kg⬇️total