1st- 7th January 2017
New Year’s Eve was great. I felt I ended the year on such a high with so much achieved and overcome in that year.
When January 1st came around the feeling was so different. I was looking at my year ahead with dread that I had to do it all again. Knowing the struggles I had last year all I could see was greater struggles this year that I have to face and get over.
Last year I didn’t know the struggles I was going to face but I tackled them head on as they came about. This year, though, I can see a little more about the struggles I have ahead of me and I have to say I am not looking forward to the challenges I need to face.
On the 2nd I woke up with a different attitude again. All I knew was that I need to seize the day. Not worry about tomorrow, not regret what I should have done yesterday but just do it NOW.
I have tried to abide by that concept all week. I have started my walking up again. But I hadn’t managed to do any running yet this year. I am wanting to go running outside because all I had done up until now was run on the treadmill.
Last time I managed to run 5 miles I am now aiming for 6 but I find that there is one thing that is stopping me from running the 6 miles and that is the 6 inches between my ears.
Those 6 inches have a lot to answer for and very often it stops me from achieving my goals.
I have always found it so much easier to talk myself out of doing something than putting in the hard work and actually going for it.
However today Matt has seen my lack of motivation and said we are going out for a run around the block rather than a walk. I think it was just what I needed because I don’t think I would have done it for myself.
I said ok without even an argument. I think it was because I knew he was right. But I do think that he totally over estimated my ability.
We went out and at first I struggled a little not with the physical side but with my breathing. We came to the first hill and I have to admit that I walked most of it.
I knew that running on the road would be a lot more challenging than running on the treadmill. I was expecting it to be hard but I did however run more than I did walk which was surprising.
The second half of the run seemed to be easier I even managed to tackle the steep hill. I almost collapsed when I got to the top though.
The run was 5k I must have ran about 3.5 of it. So for my first time out I finished quite happy with myself.
I still think that Matt over estimated my ability but I really under estimated it too. The fact that Matt believed I could do more and encouraged me all the way made it easier in some way and I think that’s why I did better than I thought I would do. It just goes to show how much easier it is to run on a treadmill when compared to outside on the road with hills!
One thing I have had this week is extra time. It was taking me about 2 – 3 hours a day just to draw a picture and do my blog. Now I am a bit freer I am wanting to use my extra time wisely.
However I find I have been totally wasting it. I am though having a little time to practice with my Christmas present. I got a stylus which is a pen that allows me to draw on my iPad (hence the different style of drawing today).
But I do want to work hard and do something more worthwhile with the extra time I have.