Day 292

Tuesday 18th October 2016. 

I have had many embarrassing moments in my life. I seem to be one of those people who are often in the wrong place at the wrong time.

One of my embarrassing moments was about 17 years ago. We were going on an Easyjet flight to Geneva. It was one of those flights where you are not assigned a seat and there was about 16 members of my family travelling so we couldn’t all sit together. 

I found a seat in the middle of the plane, my brother and niece Kate (who was 2 at the time) sat infront with an American friend who came with us. 

When I sat down I looked across the aisle and sitting there was Howard from Take That. After the flight my brother got up to help his wife with their other kids at the back of the plane. I looked after Kate but all she wanted was her Dad and went after him just as everyone got out of their seats. 

She was so upset she couldn’t get to him that she grabbed the first pair of legs she could find. Yes, they were Howard’s from Take That. 

I tried my hardest to pull her off but she was held on tight. I kept pulling and pulling her and I kept pushing at his legs to try and release them. It seemed to take forever. I was so apologetic but he was really good about it. 

It was one of those moments where you just wanted the ground to swallow you up, you wanted to hide in the corner or put a paper bag over your head – anything to hide behind. 

There was no escaping. In the airport I told our American friend who that was and her shouted “who is Howard from Take That” I said he is standing right behind you. I ended up being totally embarrassed twice in the space of minutes. I still cringe when I think about it now. 

The fact that I have been overweight for so many years means that I haven’t done certain things. I have never liked to be in the lime light, I stopped dancing at parties (when I was younger I would love to dance).  I wouldn’t move too quickly at all because I think it would have been really embarrassing to do any of that. I would never draw attention to myself because in my head it was drawing attention to my size. 

I also use to think that people were embarrassed to be with me.  I know it’s not true but that was what I thought. I couldn’t see why they would want to spend time with someone who looked like that. 

I know now that was all a total lie and no one should ever feel embarrassed about themselves. No one should ever think those thoughts because it’s totally untrue. 

You should never be embarrassed of who you are because you have nothing to be ashamed of. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

15st 13.8lbs. ⬅️➡️. 75.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 136.5kg

101.6kg. ⬅️➡️. 34.9kg⬇️total


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