Thursday 29th September 2016
Yesterday was the last day of my detox. I really didn’t think I would last the whole 10 days, but I did. I am very happy that I did because a detox is never easy. It was however so much easier than last time.
So because I finished yesterday means that today I can go back to normal. Well, my new normal, not the normal from last year. Which means I am still not eating bread, potatoes, rice or pasta.
Over the last 10 days I have been looking forward to the day I could start using oil and butter again. I have also been looking forward to my oats granola cereal and oat cakes.
This morning I thought I would have my granola for breakfast after the kids had gone to school so I could sit and savour every mouthful. I got it ready and sat on a really comfy seat so I could get the most out of the moment.
When I took my first bite it didn’t do what I had thought it would. I enjoyed it but I thought I was going to feel immense bliss.
Your mind can really play tricks on you. I had worked this up to be something so much more than it actually was. I have to say I was a little disappointed it was such an anticlimax.
I had spent 10 days building it up to be something that just ended up blowing back up in my face – like an overinflated balloon.
I find a lot of things are like that. We get excited about things that really aren’t important and when it blows up in our face we can be really disappointed. I find very often we put all our hopes on the little things and get offended and upset when it doesn’t go our way.
So I think I am going to try and not get my hopes up anymore on the little things and start valuing the big things more because it is that that counts after all.
It has also made me realise that I don’t really need these treats everyday anymore and to not rely on them so much.
Start weight 21st 5lbs
15st 13.1lbs. 0.2lbs⬇️. 75.9lbs⬇️total
Start weight 136.5kg
101.2kg. 0.1kg⬇️. 35.3kg⬇️total