Tuesday 6th September 2016
Today is the last day of the summer holidays. Tomorrow the kids go back to school. I usually find it hard getting the kids back to school because we have been out of the routine of getting up early, sorting out bags, doing pack lunches for the last 8 weeks. The getting up early bit is the worst though.
I have found since I climbed Snowdon that I have been really lazy. I can’t seem to be bothered to do anything. Usually when the kids go back to school I am really organised – not this year though. I can’t be bothered. They usually go back with fresh hair cuts as I cut their hair – I haven’t bothered to do that either.
When it comes to my eating nothing really has changed there. I am still eating what I should. But I can’t be bothered to make it. I don’t know why I have this attitude – it is like I have gone back into some of my old habits again.
Hopefully getting back into a proper routine will help. Today though I have been thinking its time I changed my attitude.
I sometimes listen to UCB on the radio. Today there was an interview with a man who had gone through quite a lot of hardship in his life. They asked him if he had any advice for the listeners and he said “never give up”.
I feel that this year I have come a long way but now I feel I need to step up some more.
Taking that next step up can be really hard. But I have decided that I will never give up, never give up dreaming, never give up trying, never give up believing – I can do it and I am never going to give up believing in myself.
I have got to this stage on diets before and I gave up. I think it was because I thought I looked OK and I didn’t need to try anymore or even because I did try and I wasn’t losing any weight. To stop at this stage now I think would be the worst thing. I need to keep going or I will end up back at square one and I haven’t put in all this hard work to throw it away now.
So quiting really isn’t an option. I just hope that I can battle on through.
Start weight 21st 5lbs
16st 7.4lbs. 0.4lbs⬇️. 67.6lbs⬇️total
Start weight 136.5kg
105kg. 0.1kg⬇️. 31.5kg⬇️total