Day 174

Wednesday 22nd June 2016

I find that when you lose weight it can mess with your mind. 

I am finding that I am getting lots of complements at the minute from lots of different people. People are saying that I am doing well, I am looking amazing. I hear it but I don’t actually believe it. 

My mind is like a jigsaw and I am gradually putting the pieces back into place


Up until  now my mind has been in a muddle. 

I find that I am my own worst critic, I know I have been eating healthier, feeling healthier, losing weight, looking better. Even though I know this I don’t believe it. 

On one hand I think I have done really well but on the other I haven’t. 

Matt keeps saying he is proud of me but I am not proud of myself. Matt says I have done really well – I say that it had to be done. Matt says I am looking so much better – I say I just look ok. 

Even though I see proof of a huge improvement. I would rather believe the doubt in my mind than the truth in my eyes. 

I will try and work on believing what people say, on the compliments I am getting and in the fact that I am doing well. 

Start weight 21st 5lbs

16st 13.4lbs.    0.2lbs⬇️.     61.6lbs⬇️total

Start weight 135.6 kg

107.7kg.        0.1kg⬇️.         29.1kg⬇️total

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3 thoughts on “Day 174

  1. Debbie. The psychology of food and body image is grossly underrated! It will take time to make some adjustments in how you see yourself. We need a balance of seeing ourselves as acceptable, lovable and beautiful regardless of our dress size and weight. I really appreciate your honesty and openness with the blogs. You are doing great. You’ve done the hardest part already. Xx
    Elaine

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