Day 166

Tuesday 14th June 2016

For a few weeks now I have just wanted to get to the 60lbs down mark. I was finally happy when I hit that mark today. 

I would class myself as being very fortunate – I had a good childhood and I am still very close to my family, I have a good marriage, I have 4 lovely sons, I have got a lot of great friends. 

So I don’t know why for years I have felt trapped, with low self esteem, with a lack of confidence, with all my health issues.  I have basically been trapped in my own body for years.

I have only just had this revelation today as I think when you are trapped you don’t notice it. When Jenny, our cleaner, said that I seem to have a lot more freedom to do things now, I realised she was right. 

People everywhere fight for freedom. Countries fight wars for their freedom, the suffragettes fought for women’s freedom,  Jesus died on the cross for our freedom. So why have I never done it for myself. 

It’s only now that I realise my confidence is coming back, my self esteem is better, I don’t seem to want to hide behind things anymore. I still think there is a way to go but I am realising with this lifestyle change I am doing, I am finding my own freedom again. 

I have felt that I lost my personality under all that weight. Now that it is going I am starting to see the old me again.

Start weight 21st 5lbs

17st 0.8lbs.       0.6lbs⬇️.     60.2lbs⬇️total

Start weight 135.6 kg

108.3kg.            0.3kg⬇️.        28.3kg⬇️total


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